mY iNNer SpAce

2010-03-21T05:58:00.001-07:00

its been so long sinced i blogged
i feel that i have aged so much since entering uni.
i promise i will make my uni-life vibrant next year and stil get good grade.
its just a matter of what your brain thinks.
nono
its just a matter of what you wan your brain to think

ytd was spdition
i met this boy who aspire to be in aero also.
he is special. but he doesnt allow himself to think this way.
he still wanna work his way there.
ALL THE WAY!
you be at where you wanna be if you try and believe
you may fail.
but you can get up and try
and fail and try
one day you will succeed

am i encouraging him or myself?
whatever la
i shall be focus from today onwards
i realised that i almost put my dream at the back of mind
the source of motivation that make me work hard
make me wanna achieve something so realise it

GOOD LUCK TO YOU HUIYI

2009-11-07T22:20:00.000-08:00

its been so long since i blogged.
opps =X been busy at uni.. =(
i wonder why teachers in the passed always says uni is much slacker than jc.. mayb they are trying to encourage us to jump into hell.wahaha.
prob its slacker here cos no one cares if we attend lesson..but everyone will jus attend no matter wat.cos will die if nv attend cos afterwards will not understand a shit.
lol. my best rewarding discovery in uni:
in uni, getting a 80 or even 90 for a test is considered cui if everyone else are getting 100.
lol.
tat makes 90 a b.
how nice.
lol. back to studying. (:

2009-08-28T22:08:00.000-07:00

i feel emo..
emo i feel you..
rawr...i dunoe what i talking.
anw,i got into maxar main comm as public relation executive. hooray.
i am happy about it.
do i sound like?
i dunnoe.
gah..
looks like my total utility is really 0111111 of signed bits.
and even the lecturer also agrees tat we shld just leave everything to market forces.

ciao~

2009-08-21T20:06:00.000-07:00

okay..i am back home!
=)
i have decided that i think i do want to stay at hall8 next year so i have to start working hard in hall!due to my VERY lack of pts, distance pts onli 3? lol..its v hard for me to earn pts so i go by participating in alot of comms to get in to rec list!
I want to join the following:
Maxar main comm
Welfare sub-comm
Sports sub-comm
Take part in IBG and IHG
and FOC GL or senior attach.. LOL.
Porky has been trying to tell me the pros of jus being a senior attach over GL..haha.his argument is that SA if u are tired u can dont run..GL u tired u stil have gotta run. LOL..
Ok..that one can wait til a later date.. first things first.. this monday got Maxar interview! at common hall there i think. i wil go for it.=)
then got IBG..wk asks me to play for 42 in basketball..but super long nv play alr! n super long nv exercise..WILL die!*touch wood*
but most prob i will join IHG..like got training before playing at least not so bad..i hope my shoulder is good and doesnt give me problems! =X
this week has been shag..may be not yet used to the tutorials and stuff.. but i stil LOVE my hall life!
<3 apple!
CIAO~

2009-08-14T11:44:00.000-07:00

woah..
had a long day. after school had korean lesson at JE. i kept dozing off. feel bad.=x
then came back and chatted with them! wahaha..it was chaotic yet fun..dun wan go in to the details but just FUN! haha.. the ALOT OF COT form.. alot of gossip. i realli realli love my clan.. the people are all fun.=)
was talking to yj about HIV vaccines...i realli realli hope he can produce the vaccine one day! so many poor kids out there are like suffering and dying becos of the dirty reality about this world.. I hope i can do my part to protect them one day.
wanted to blog long stories about my day. but super tired alr..now like 2.47? shag..
NIGHT! and SD! =)

ciao~

I AM GOING HALL TML!=)

2009-08-09T05:43:00.001-07:00

okay where did i stop?
oh well,whatever.
so fri night i went to find them at OOSH? okay i was super early cos i rushed out thought i will be late!okay then i went to buy pressie for my SP and took a cab to botanical garden.Its been so long since i went to BG? like long till i dun remb my presence there.
okays so i walked. The more i walked...the more emo i got..lol. maybe it was due to the lack of noisy Kaizo frens tat i have. JUST EMO-DED then.Okay just walked and then saw this swan lake..and swans(like DUH). Wanted to take a freaking foto with them and they scare me! GRRR...
Walk and walk...walking makes me think about alot of things.From the most recent, camp.I was amazed how friendships can be made so easily and yet when things go wrong the friendship just ends like tat. WOAH..
ok then i started thinking about my past few years..like JC,secondary school.wat i did.wat i did correctly..and i din realise i was walking towards Oosh. then i tot of JTJJ. Idk why whenever i am emo i will remb all things and memories that we shared in secondary school..i think its a stupid move cos tat just makes me more emo knowing that i wont see him ever again. Uni life is gg to begin like another phase of my life? but i just cant help thinking about the past phases. I will wonder whether i will find a fren like JTJJ ever in the future. okay great i am gg to arrive teary at Oosh was my tot when i was about to reach dempsey. then i got lost at some place that has durian selling sessions.
i called qiu ping and the phone was passed on to alot of pple and then finally settled on derrick who brought me there. phew.
got there then i think the sianness set in..but i think something amused me! haha! my SP is so secretive that i until know also dunnoe who he is! haha..he din come and find me.. my clan pple super angry about it but then i think stil okay leh.. at least i am spared the akwardness.hahaha.
Kaizo won best games and best clan! woots! 3 years in a row! can hang banner alr!muahahha.
high.
went back chalet at around 2 then reach at around 3 then bathed! woah some pple realli drunk untill cannot walk! so scary~then was supper then HTHT!=)my fave! but then our clan HTHT is like most pple still sleeping type? not fun one.then went HTHT with the seniors..more gossips about jiabas..i din sleep whole daY!was talking to one of the few survivors like jb, par,yj till bus came.. i am practically a walking zombie when i went to collect my keys..=(
okay enuff recollections..today national day! HAPY BIRTHDAY SINGPORE!=)
i wil stil love you even when u are 100! teehee.
okays.i tml stil got teach tuition..sleeping soon!
ciao~

HALL 8 KAIZO ROX!

2009-08-06T19:51:00.000-07:00

i just came back for awhile then going out to msia soon then going to meet the guys at dempsey! these guys rock my life for the past few days...completed tasks with me that i know i will never be able to complete without them!
To be truthful, I din go to the camp with a 100% heart cos i was sceptical. I wanted to just like leave on thurs morning since i was made to go msia..then i got addicted to Kaizo. Be it the random "this is a snake, this is also a snake...so is this a snake?" and the "falling falling falling...has the leaf fallen ?"games , the nobody nobody dances by the Wonder gays(OPPS) or the talk kok session at macdonalds..i just love to be with them. The amazing race is also super amazing. It was super tiring...super SHAG...made me look super chui~ ...but as we chiong up every uphill hill and completed every stations, i just cant help but feel proud of myself that I finished it and that we finished it together.. We won the Amazing race for 2days! =D HARPPIE~
I wil blog about SP night again when i come back!
p.s. tml take hall key!WOOTS~

CIAO~

2009-07-26T05:11:00.000-07:00

I am 19th! today is the last day in my TENS...next years is my TWENTIES~
well..my birthday is a peaceful one..
everyone kept asking me how come my birthday is spent at home using the internet!
there are even pple calling me siaO~
lol.i must clarify one thing! i did went out with my frens to mind's cafe ytd! teehee.
but actually...i kinda find this new peace on birthday fun. no need the haste and fuss over wat birthday present to buy...what cake to choose... just myself being with myself on the day i am born.
i promised myself that i wanna wake up at 8.37am to wish myself!haha.but then i overslept. oh well, i will do it next year.=)
best present i received this year..the cake my mom baked for me. It was nothing fanciful..a carrot made cake to replace the normally extra sweet chocolate cakes. I love it cos its made by mom. the effort to do it is my best birthday pressie! thnks! =) who says pressie has to be expensive to be memorable?Heehee.(:
Going off~
CIAO~

PS I AM 19!

2009-07-19T02:44:00.001-07:00

Met dunearn family for dinner ytd at manhanttan fish market at clarke quay ytd..it seems quite sometime since i met them as i din go for the monthly meeting for 2 times i think? Just happi to see all of them doing well..(:
I ate grilled catch of the day..Pacific Dory..HAHA.Sound so pro..but actually it is just grilled fish and some rice. The fish is nice! Fresh!=) *thumbs up*
PS passed me my birthday pressie.haha..i was kinda in a shock cos din expect. then at that moment i was still thinking when is my birthday la!haha. Well, thnks guys.=) It was my xiao di KK de birthday too! he only younger than me by a few days!hahah.
I especially like the card that was with the pressie...All the well wishes that they gave. PS even drew a sotong in the card... Jordan. How i wish that he is there with us too, laughing with us, eating fish with us. Tiny tiny bits of things in my life reminds me of him..His msn (which i cun bear to del)..His christmas pressie for me last year.. Sometimes I will wonder where is he now..what is he doing..is he enjoying himself in wherever he is? I wont dwell in sadness again cos i know he wont us to be, just wants everyone to be happie...
Its just sad how we onli think of each other when the other is no longer present...That reminds me how terrible i was the passed few years always waiting to be contacted. ;(
I will change. Gimme time. lol. Sound like some advertisment.

CIAO~

2009-07-04T06:59:00.000-07:00

ETHY passed her driving test and gotten her licence on 3rd july 2009!
it was a super adventurous experience that she doubt she will ever forget !

her why am i using a third party thingy?haha
din blog ytd when i passed cos was super exhausted mentally dun have the strength to blog.haha
my tester look strict..but he was nice enough to give me very clear instructions and advice such as move infront abit so tat i can see the road clearer to make a better turn.
*thumbs up*

phew lucky everything is over now.
no more lesson for every week.
i can drive a car!
aint tat exciting!

hope i can get my car soon.
hope i can choose the car that i wanna.

shall stop here need to sleep early cos tml need to wake up early for breakfast then meet ah eve and the rest for ah eve's wedding foto shoot!feel excited for her.=)

cIaO~

2009-06-29T04:57:00.000-07:00

played badminton in the morning with mom.. my knees are failing me seriously..movements are slowing down...shoulder's injury restrict my hand movement.ok..nvm i am not playing competition so its ok la ya? i guess la huh..
watched prison break season 4...i am going to finish it!actually this whole show is about who can cheat who more and only those who choose the correct person to trust wins the game.its like life...nv know which step we take whether is correct or not. even the hot fave like Michael and Sara also has got pple they betray and got betrayed. This set me thinking...if one day, your bro was set up by a huge force...in death penalty, will u risk everything...even if it means losing ur life..ur career, everything u ever worked hard for..will u do it to save him? I think maybe in show Michael can make the decision to save lincoln so easily...i think i will take ages before i can make up a decision?
alright...enough about the show..i will continue after i finished the whole show maybe i got more things to say bah.haha.
ok i am super pissed with my printer!! i wanted to print the documents for my cpf edu scheme then paper jam!! like everytime i wanna print something also will kena jam. i wan to get it settled quickly man...like its bothering me and dad is like keep nagging me!
ok stop blogging here! i meeting ah eve for badminton tml! haha.. first time..

CIAO~

2009-06-27T19:57:00.000-07:00

Got back from beijing on 21st june..lazy to blog till now.
the trip made me changed the impression of china...for abit at least. The other time i went china was to Shanghai, Suzhou,Hangzhou, Wuxi and forgot where alr..maybe its because of the olympics,the environment compared to the other time was MUCH cleaner and lesser hazy.I like the temperature at beijing..walking out on the streets is like walking in an aircon room...mayb the sunlight spoil the atmosphere abit.but its super cooling and cos the humidity is low..i dun sweat!haha.But on the down side, my face got peeling symptoms..lol..too dry alr.
Went to climb the great wall of china..the wall is REALLY GREAT! super long,super steep and despite the regular exercise regime i had, it is still very exhausting to climb up..BUT I MADE IT to the top of that section!haha.the view is magnificient! like..WOAH...like i am SO CLOSE TO THE SKY! everything at the bottom are like ants..so small. The tour guide was telling us abit about the history of the WALL...Millions of people died building it..look at the size of it..i have no doubt that it is true.Braving through the different climate..with little rest and maybe little food.. these ppl gotta carry those small little bricks up and down (mind you, there is no machines at that time)What were these ppl thinking when they are building the wall..?What was the emperor thinking?that the scarifice of the millions to make the country a fortress was worth it? I can't comprehend. Mayb that is what people call..FOR THE GREATER GOOD.
The 7days at china was eye-opening..scenary, old buildings that were build by the Qing, Ming..blah blah dynasty..SUPERB! The shopping place at CHina was also eye-opening...one word to describe? FEROCIOUS. I was once grabbed by 2 Chinese women when i entered a shop to enquire about a top..then i said i will come back again..they just grabbed me even harder! insisting that i negotiate the price with them and not just walk off! I was stuck there for...15mins?then another customer came, i used the few seconds of distraction to "escape" the shop. PHEW. Moral of the story? DONT ENTER A SHOP ALONE.. ok and then i went to call my mom and sis..we went to the shop to buy the top TOGETHER! haha.
All in all..The experience in China made me see many perspective of the country and her people. The thought that my ancestors were from China does made me feel proud that I am a Chinese too.SOMEHOW.

GOing to watch my prison break season 4! type more when i dun feel lazy.HAHA.
CIAO~

2009-06-10T18:00:00.000-07:00

my blog finally has got a tag! thanks to mr terence lim.=)

yay going beijing tml alr! wee...i love holiday! received my NTU letter ytd and like seem to have alot of things to do... medical check up,tuition grant thingy, cpf thingy...ALOT! lucky i received it before my hols..i will be on hols till 21st then by then one of the deadline..19june is OVER alr.
well i feel kinda apprehensive about going to uni..haha..like i cannot believe I AM GOING TO BE A UNI UNDERGRAD! primary school like just ytd..tho this thing sounds very cliche..but its true.hahah.
going to PC show later with mom and owyang..buy lappy later! woohoo! hope i can get one that is superly duperly good and not ex..got budget de wor.. buy lappy got another worry seh..like got alot of things about lappy that i dunnoe..HOW sia..need to install anti-virus..ms office and ivan tan is in army how to upload for me!
my lappy better last for 4 years or more!

ciao~

2009-04-10T03:17:00.000-07:00

My whole day is spent in the cyber world again..well there is nothing much else that i can do at the moment.
Watched yet another 2 great movies.. Coach carter and remember the titans..The fighting spirits that Richmond basketball team and T.C. team has already owned their opponents!
The more shows i watched..more shows pop up in my head, oldies mainly that are really CLASSIC..NICE.. I want to watch Sister Act, The Pursuit of happyness and Like mike..maybe i will be able to think of nice shows along the way again..but the few shows that i have named shld not be missed! HA!
The sniper is on the theatres alr! Waiting for the show to be not "STar-ded" then i can treat my parents go watch the movie again..this time with the complimentary tickets!hoho!
Gotta go! Bro still owe me some shows,he din bring it back for me!Humpf!

CIAO~

2009-04-08T20:22:00.000-07:00

Amazing.. i finished watching 2 movies in half a day..
First i watched Pay it forward. I remb i first watched it at sec2..Mrs Lim showed it to us..it still touched me till today when i watched it. Puts great faith on the good of human nature.. how many of us can really do that? I went to the PIF homepage then they have this page that has got all the personal experience of PIF from different people of different walks of life..i cannot imagine PIF really does work in this seemingly mean world..are we really talking about the same world? Like what one entry mention..it got me thinking..what can i do? can i really do something? to change the world?...
then i watched what terence reco-ded..Forrest Gump. Its pretty interesting to watch..like whatever life puts him into..he picked himself up and move on and he became a BILLIONAIRE in the end.haha. Well its fictional..but i believe such things happen sometime.
Here is a list of motivational movies that i reco now:
-Pay it forward
-Forrest Gump
-Remember the Titans
-Coach Carter
Now i remb what my primary school english teacher said before..Whatever you read..there is always something that you can learn from. Damn how come i only understand it now...if not i would have started reading early.haha.
Going BBDC later to book my prac test date..woo..kinda worried what will i face.haha.
BOO~

CIAO~

2009-04-08T03:43:00.000-07:00

its been ages since i blogged.
boredom makes me lazy.haha.
i just watch slumdog millionaire de dvd.Jamal is fated to have a hard life before he can succeed.well in the end he did.=) phew...if i hadnt known that he would win the 20million rupees in the show i would have been so worried for him! lol.
these days have been busy trying out things tat i din do before. First time in my life..i BURNT A CD!First time in my life i uploaded songs in my mobile..and first time i put songs into my ipod.haha.
my dad keep nagging me to go and book my practical driving test date..but i am lost of how to do it! any advice anyone?=( during my sister's era is like not so high tech not internet so cannot give me much advice. i hate the technologically savvy BBDC..its so not computer-idiot friendly.=(
ok crap terence just reco another show to me..forrest gump damn old show 1996? when tom hanks is so so young. ok i am off to watch it!

ciao~

2009-03-11T23:32:00.000-07:00

I was randomly looking through the msn contact list when i saw J.
I suddenly realise his not going to be online anymore...i suddenly miss him alot..miss crapping with him..
We humans are always like that we only treasure stuff that we have lost.
Just like my nick the other day...you will always be in our hearts...

2009-03-11T19:38:00.000-07:00

there is a saying 雨过天晴， after so many days of depressing and pondering i guess i am finally feeling oK! trashed things out with mom ytd and yep feeling much better.

*deleting sad memories*

*processing...*

*SUCCESS! DELETED!*

okay crap. anw..the Boy over flowers finally loaded their new epi! epi 18 and 19..haha so cute la the show..much much better than the tw version..

I LOVE KIM BUM! haha.he is so cute can. i like him better than Lee Min Ho. but then Kim Bum cannot act as Gu Joon Pyo la he not fierce enough..hahahha!=D

oH oh! Kim Hyun Joong is nice too!haha..in the show at least..Yoon Ji Hoo is so nice to Jandi! *THUMBS UP!*

incase pple who view these blog dont know who i am talking...

This is Kim BUM!=D

The one in white is Kim Hyun Joong and the one is brown is Lee Min Ho.

lol.

Going to continue watching my show!

CIAO¬

2009-03-09T22:04:00.000-07:00

I can't help but have such thoughts these days:

No matter how hard you try to convince yourself that light doesn't travel in a straight line, it still does...Just like no matter how hard you try to convince yourself that somethings would not happen, it will still happen. Should we still challenge what we were foretold?
P.S. I am kinda into physics these days.

I am experiencing some de ja vu of what happened when i took my PSLE results..i made a right choice then (i think) will i make a right choice now?

Anw, I told her a lie. Actually feeling quite guilty so i decided to write here least i am overcome by guilt. She doesnt know about this blog... I know what they were talking on the phone. I am not suppose to know..but somehow i knew. She doesnt want you to know as she is worried that you would not be able to take it or that it would have hurt ur pride. Let me be the safekeeper of this secret, I don't want you to be affect. If you know it in the future...i am sorry i lied.

CIAO~

2009-03-06T05:16:00.000-08:00

GREAT! i pass my final theory for driving ytd! and i gotten back my alevel results.
hee i can stop worrying i cant get into uni!=D
i got a D for general paper..tats quite sucky.but the rest stil ok.. AAAAB.
hope i get into whatever course i wanna.(:
i am worried for shina, qx and lyn. they din do very well..saw qx cried for the first time today i am lost of what to do. I hope they are taking in well by now.cheer up girls!
i have got psychometric test at polic cantonment complex tml.so worried on what i maybe expecting!
i wil have to learn to chill.haha.
ciao~

i miss school days

2009-03-03T03:08:00.000-08:00

i miss school days..
miss the lessons,miss the food,miss the place and especially i miss the pple and frens i USED TO have.
how sad it is when before parting goodbyes we promised to keep in touch,
whats left now are byes that we do not think about.
maybe we were closed in the past cause of pure obligations as we see each other daily,
but i truely hope that MAYBE..we truly wants to be...FRENS.
MAYBE i am being sensitive as i also tot myself as...but we are really drifting apart.
my eagerness to stay intouch will die down one day if repeatedly drenched by cold rejects.
MAYBE she is busy..my mom always tells me. YEA maybe...but why am i not the reason you are busy that day?
a fren smsed one day...i was really happy. but she onli wants to remind me to return her $3.50 for chicken rice she helped me buy the other day.i am soaked in the dampness of reject...well...maybe i shld have just returned her the money EARLIER so that what she rembs of me is not $3.50..BUT ME.ME. ESTHER TAN HUIYI.ME!
i think i am losing faith...
i will one day think that friends forever is BULLSHIT.
that will be the day i will stop making friends.
let things just stop at acquaintance-level.
so that the level of damage will be at the minimal...
Wish you luck in whatever you are doing... pls call me one day...date me for a drink...before i really lose what little confidence i have of friendship.

2009-02-25T19:49:00.000-08:00

its been ages since i blogged.

alot of things happened at the blink of the eye some periods ago..and things just died down after awhile..like now. But i can't help always looking back...what has happened...is there anyway things could have changed for the better..reverted in one form or another..his passing away has made me rethink many principles and priorities of my life but think is one thing...whether anot i have the strength and faith to challenged and changed any wrong thinking or..perceived to be wrong thinkings..is another.I have since experienced the fragility of life..and starting to treasure my family and life more. But i feel that what i am doing now is insufficient..i have yet to figure out where the insufficiency lies though.

i hope i will find some answers soon.
Next week i am going to face one of my biggest challenge or i would say barrier in my life..i have the chance to escape from it..do i wan to escape? i know i don't...but i can't help thinking of the what ifs..

OH MAN..i hate dilemmas.

2009-02-11T05:07:00.001-08:00

my fren Jordan is having his most critical few hours in his life...he is on life support and has blood clots in his brain that requires removal once his brain pressure falls to normal. He needs blood, B+/O+ and platelets urgently..anyone who sees this post and are willing to go to NUH for donation..please contact me @ huiyi1990@hotmail.com . thnks.

2009-02-04T04:54:00.001-08:00

YEA~i went back aj yesterday and saw alot of teachers and juniors that i missed!haha.
ytd i met nic at yewtee and we went aj.. went to first look for stupid ms ow-yang at the pe dept and we went to find teachers altogether.. first saw mr phang..HAHA..happily married. we talk for like an hour?then ya he said he needed to do work..then Ms Ow-yang went to find mdm lee..hehe..she just as cute..say nic look like toufu..so random.haha..we met her for lunch and yea..we talked.she is just as funny just as nice.=D *thumbs up* After that we felt sian and somemore stupid Ms OWyang ps us and went to eat with the pe teachers and me and nic went amk play drum! haha. play until hand wan to break liaO!
i went back aj after tat to look for OY to play basketball..end up playing badminton with the PE teachers.hee.so fun.so long nv play with ppl that enjoy badminton as much as me.=D yea especially when i havent been exercising for very long..suddenly play badminton was quite refreshing.=D
then slacked at OY's desk then crapped with the pe teachers for awhile then i went to play basketball! i trained with the girls for awhile then i gotta go home alr.sian..cos parents nagged at me to go home..=C BOO...
well..it was a fruitful day.ENJOYED MYSELF TOTALLY.

ciao~

2009-02-01T03:45:00.000-08:00

I am so upset! I spoil my blog links tat page! i don't know what i did and it cant be open. anyone can help me?

Today i went to my basketball coach's house for new year. Oh man, i didn't realise how much i miss my teamates and coach! We still share the same laughter, joke(jun and darren) and all. oh, coach's babies, Marcus and Selina, ARE SO SO CUTE! round big eyes..chubby cheeks..adorable smiles and even tantrums!haha. so ACTIVE! Later got a photo of them..haha.coach printed for us..so so so cute cute cute.haha..I wan a pair of kids like them also!
Okays, we chatted and did some catching up like we always use to after training. i miss it so much.
I ponder over a question. Why do i miss school times, especially at AJC so much? I used my whole train ride to come out with an answer. In school, everything is so so so simple.All we kids have to do is one thing, ie study. In CCA, we all had a common goal..an aim that was so obvious that we do not have to search the haystack for. It was all so simple. Spoonfed. But life after you leave school is not as simple. For one thing i am sure of is that ppl in the life you are going to meet after you leave school is not going to spoonfeed you things..tell you what you want to achieve in life..they won't do it and do not have the rights to dictate it well, simply because that is your own life. Maybe i m in the metamophosis phase where i m changing...or rather trying to change to the person that life wants me to be...independent..in total rule of my own life.But i cannot forget the years and years of enjoyment without the need to think i want...cos its the obvious. Making decision now is hard cos i am not used to doing so. Rigid system left me without the need to be headache of these things. Good thing that i do not have to kill so much brain cells for them. Bad thing that i am killing more now. Well, i have to get out of this hateful phase SOON albeit the saying that goes nothing ventured nothing gain...i never been thru this, i wont know what to expect and gain in the future.

RANTS.

Photos of Selina and Marcus

Photos of us..i look weird..

2009-01-30T05:09:00.000-08:00

Today i went to play pool with Cousin Oxy(ah wei) and his girlfriend, Jez. haha..FuN! first time go out with them end up quite nice.=D haix. i tot i will have my korean lesson today! but end up postpone also din tell me! waste my time! we could have played longer.
ok i am so stuck with this hongkong show Forensic Heroes! haha. Tempting me to continue chemistry in uni..like so amazing the way chemistry and science can be used to find the truth of crimes!
did i mentioned? i signed up for VSC..quite apprehensive about what will be the outcome of my application! i wonder whether will i get in..haha.
i am learning driving soon! Mr teo or Mr Tan? which driving instructor should i engaged to teach me driving? Ms Jez is pondering about this qn also.haha.

i am so tired. oh oh... i love the song GIVE MY LOVE...! so stuck into the back of my head. its played in the korean show Last dance. =D
shall end my rant here.

ciao~

2009-01-28T21:02:00.000-08:00

today is the fourth day of new year..
seriously no new year mood at all for this year.
disappointing.
bored.
later maybe meeting cousin and jez for pool! bukit timah! but maybe not going also cos jez think dun wanna go bt..
anw..i more and more like the boys before flowers show!haha.korean version for f4! hee.=D
waiting for them to load episode 9. sian.

ciao~

2009-01-24T04:01:00.000-08:00

Today i met nicole for arcade..lunch..shopping and slacking. I bought a white dress! =D abit thin tho..but ok i can wear a shirt inside. Finally went out after like dunoe how many days slacking at home doing nothing except for surfing the net. Actually was feeling pretty good and stuff then reality seem to struck me. Ok..i am going home. What am i going to do next? yes..study for my FTT.. then? suddenly feel that my life is getting on monotonously...no meaning. then i rembed the random internet search that i made on the SPF webbie. I feel like taking up Volunteer Special Constabulary.. Being a police officer is like one of the career path i may take up i really want to try what it is like..to do something meaningful. Anw it won't take up alot of time cause the min. is 16 hours of duty every month. I don't mind the low pay..(there is reason why it is volunteered) if i am doing something i like i feel CORRECT..but i really no confident. My shoulder injury..will i be able to survive the 9months of basic training?will i excerbate the problem on my shoulder? will they even want me if they know that i may not be 100% fit? other than that...i have no confidence of convincing my dad that i want to try enrolling that.. He has no objection of me wanting to become an officer in the future..but now? i really dunno. terribly dunno.confused.angry at myself for me doubtful of myself..angry at myself for the lack of confidence to try. I really don't know what become of me. Ever since the stupid shoulder of mine became injured...it has really robbed off alot of opportunity from me..alot of games.. alot of experience..ALOT OF CONFIDENCE on court and off court. Because i FEAR. not of pain...but fear of worrying my parents again.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you NOT to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won't feel unsure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. As we let our own Light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
-Marianne Williamson

You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do.
-Eleanor Roosevelt

Can i really do what they say?

2009-01-18T03:26:00.000-08:00

Zhi Jun just upload this pics on my facebook...I miss those days spent...training,playing,sweating..nearly dying with this ppl..Now we have all embark on a different chapter of our lives.. When will it be the next time we can play together as team?! Oh man suddenly very sentimental about it... shall stop..

today had reunion dinner with my family! my family no. is growing! haha. from 5 to now 7! dad was saying hope next year got 9..*hint hint* hope i will have nieces and nephews soon!..hoho..

ciao~

2009-01-16T10:11:00.000-08:00

I have successfully changed blogskin..
*claps*
SO PROUD OF MYSELF...
Although still got error here and there...I just ask my advisors to help me.=D
Today is Taksheng's birthday..HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2009-01-11T05:02:00.001-08:00

i am so exhausted from work man...
from morning till night i am faced with piles and piles of orders!lucky i nv work long term..so tiring..but i will work! i wanna save money buy pillow for parents..haha..parents old alr..need better neck rest for better night sleep and rest!
anw..i found back my confidence that my dream will come true one day... first step...SAVE and EARN ALOT OF MONEY!hohoho..anyone interested in "investing" into my dream can email me!i promise its worth it.=P
i miss having not to do and think of anything in korea!=X back here gotta think of work..kk..going off..

ciao~

2009-01-09T16:11:00.000-08:00

see this weird feeling rising in me...
no longer as sure there direction that i am heading..WHY! i m also not sure...but i will find a way out of this..
today i am working!finally after rotting at home for so long..but i wil be working only for 2 days..i havent finish studyin for my driving test on the 20th..WISH ME LUCK!
my korean lesson starts on 30th jan! so looking forward to it..hope its not to hard!...

gotta go rushing for work.

CIAO~

2009-01-09T00:42:00.000-08:00

i just went lot1 to print photos and take kimchi and squid from XP.. i printed another 75 photos and in total i printed 175 photos alr! XP still laugh at me say i print alot end up she one day alone print more than 100 plus! she is mad de! haha.
ok i now watching the korean show new heart by 池成，金敏侦，赵在贤和李智something.. that show is super nice.. but then... i am angry super duper angry when i am watching the show! like...how can the doctors meet difficult diseases and all attempting to cease treatment for fear of failure cos it will tarnish the reputation of the hospital? How can the doctors put their fear above the fear of the patients himself..?! like...can you imagine the fear, anxiety and all the mixed feelings already felt by the patients...how can the doctors be so irresponsible to excerbate this fear that they are feeling... what is worst than the fear of being given up by doctors?! oh man..angry. ok but one thing that the show has reiterated in me is that you do not have to be great to help others. even though you may not be a doctor or someone great to be able to actively involved in the helping process...but you never belittle what little power that one hold to make another feel better. =D I already set my goal..my lifetime goal...JIA YOU!

i am going to continue watching the angry show!

CIAO¬

2009-01-07T17:41:00.000-08:00

Teddy Bear Museum at Jeju Island! (: KAWAII~

2009-01-07T03:30:00.000-08:00

some ski photos! haha..

2009-01-07T02:51:00.001-08:00

ok i am back in singapore!now feel tat singapore is really super warm! keep perspiring and stuff now..i kinda miss korea's temperature although its making my gastric uncomfy and skin dry. above are some fotos tat i had taken from WH and VIV..really afew only cos uploading is slow.

but i really enjoyed myself! =D

ciao~

2008-12-29T16:45:00.000-08:00

WEEEE~~~~
i going korea tonight!! hahah.. so excited. Going with mom, aga,fel,wh,Xp, viv and aga family..WEE~~too bad khong is not going if not it wil be more fun!haha.
yesterday was my last day of work...altho i still feel guilty that wendy has to do all the work by herself before the replacement comes, but i am still quite glad that its over and that i dun have to go back there and do! so tiring..but tat is not the main quitting reason la... its also cos the pay very low.haha. anw..i also feel guilty to mr lee.but i shall put my guilt aside today and keep looking forward to Korea.. flight is at 2240 but need reach airport at 2030! later khong going to come my house later then go airport together!haha.
i made Sichuan vege soup for my sis just now..i think very xiang...i hope it taste nice too!haha.
ok gotta stop here...going to the airport to fetch sis and bro in law le!weeee~

ciao~

2008-12-26T18:07:00.000-08:00

i had been busy at work these days...working as a promoter at robinsons!
its...tiring...
towels...bath mats..cushions..EVERYTHING...
keep folding and folding..
well i dun blame the customers, if i am then i would have done the same in order to get the best bargain..
me and jun thinking of quitting..for some reasons with the working hours..they keep calling us to work OT!but the thing is i do the job becos the working hour is suitable for me...if not why would i accept the job!haix...well see how things progress today..
going for work soon

CIAO~

2008-12-18T23:33:00.000-08:00

...BORED...

just finished Yi Tian Tu Long Ji then now watching perfect neighbour! i like tat guy (Kim Seung Woo) act de show!That time he acted in Hotelier i think super nice also.

Sunday meeting the girls for christmas dinner. I hope everyone can make. Its been awhile since i met them..=D

Monday probably gotta work late... 12 to 3am cos need to set up the stall for the promotion.hope got double pay but i doubt so lar..i just hope they pay for my taxi fare home!haix.hahah.

kk..

CIAO~

2008-12-18T03:50:00.001-08:00

esther tan went out with herself today

she shopped at lot1 in CCK...

and bought things..

it feels...

OK..

mindless sms..

i wont approach you anymore fren...

in case you find me irritating...pls take care of urself.

CIAO~

2008-12-15T23:42:00.000-08:00

ok..i keep delaying wat i wanted to blogged about since dunoe when now its pay back time...

first thing first..
i was at town on a Saturday night to celebrate mel's birthday. But before that i had to go pay money for Korea trip in china and briefing at 2 pm..then it ended at about 230pm and i reached town at like...3? SUPER early! cos i am suppose to meet the girls at 530..so i decided to slack and keep walking la..I first went to wisma..then taka.. (i got lost there and i called KHONG...thnks ah KHONG for saving my life)..then i went TANGs,Paragon, back to tangs then its almost 530..then i went to meet QX, Jessie,Clar and Val. When i was walking about...i dunnoe why..i suddenly feel very lonely,out of place. Christmas is round the corner and the decor are really fantastically beautiful..everyone is busy with their shopping.. I cant help but keep my eyes on the look out for another lonely shopper..as if it helps. But ya.. i notice that I am actually not alone in being alone..It feels like a finding a family member at the midst of chaos..but of cos i dunoe them. I wonder why are they alone..why are they not shopping with frens and family like me. Christmas and birthday alike.. are events and festivals that most ppl like cos it meant that u can get together with ppl u like and love, not having the need to think about work and agendas.. But why do i feel MOST alone when during these days? these feelings din stop there but seems to be aggravated at night when everyone is enjoying themselves amid the christmas decor and street performers....WHY DO I FEEL SO....LONELY..then?
Had a drink with QX,Val and Jun at Starbucks bfore i went home..we chatted for quite sometime and left for home. Just before i reached home, on my dad's car... i decided...I am MAD for God knows what reason. HAHA.

ok..the next day i went to a chalet with my secondary school frens mostly pple from the student council at downtown east costa sands. Its been quite sometime i been to that chalet cos i usually go to aloha or the other costa sands..but anws... i like the feeling of not having to rush to go home so i decided to stay at the chalet for one night. Upon reaching there, we watched TV. Ok altho the show is probably just a few years younger than me, we kinda enjoy ourselves..then MAHJONG! seriously,its abit borin to play without money. I am not a compulsive gambler..but i have to admit that playing mahjong without money lost the KICK of playing it...like...HU LE! WOW!ok...next round..then..nothing to look forward the feeling..but ok la..first time playing with them its kinda like a new experience. haha. then its bbq time..i wanted to help out la..but its seems to overflow with pple..so me, maple, px,hub and Seow Huan slacked thru out at the room with air con waiting for the food to be served. YUMMY. I like the fish..hee.. with the Belacan..SUPERB! haha. then ya we slacked...and slacked.. and slacked..then we celebrated 8 pple's birthday!haha. everyone need to take a foto on her/his own..so...WEIRD.SHY.You name it u have it can.. haa.but i guess it was ok. I got a super BIG EEYORE for my birthday pressie and Jordan bought me a mini version for Christmas with this glass panel with my name written on it and hub gave me a necklace with a butterfly looking pendant..thnks pple for ur pressie..i like them.ok after the cake cutting and stuff its almost like 2? ok..Arcade is closed, pool is closed and i cant fall asleep...WAT AM I GOING TO DO! yep..so i chatted with Seow huan..wah this girl can realli talk man..ya and we chatted super long till 4 then she slept..and i am left alone with several surviving few like KK, PX and Maple. then maple fell asleep then left me, kk and PX..ok i think i am pretty good at stoning cos i stoned all the way till 5plus then i went home with hub. I reached home then went eat breakfast then slept! almost immediately can.I woke up and i saw TTS's reply..he is so crap can...keep dun wan tell me why is he awake at 5 in the morning..but nvm..i make sure he tell me..haha.

ok..then today is another slack day.but ok..i got myself an interview tml at 10am at JE..sales assistant.. 5dollars per hour wor..but ok la..i think at least i get myself a job to do better than wasting my life away.hahha.

i miss my sis n bro in law.of cos sis more.=P
ciao~

2008-12-12T05:53:00.000-08:00

Actually got alot of things to blog about today..but my muscle aches are really obstructing movements..GRRR...today went training with them u see..damn tired.
i shall blogged soon about everythinG!cos tml celebrating mel's bdae too!=D

anw,second GC for sale.. Casio.. used for one year only cos the other time my old one spoiled so i bought this new one. the GC plus usage manual for $100 dollars onli...up for grabs!haha..if u happen to see this post and interested can email me at huiyi1990@hotmail.com

oh anw...sis at Florence now...ENVY!haha..

okok my arms cannot take it liao.
ciao~

busy day!

2008-12-11T02:42:00.000-08:00

phew...today went out with parents and we did alot of things.
1) went to sis and bro-in-law the new house. (cos they went overseas for honeymoon la hor....old folks say must go see.=P)
2)go do CPF admin stuff with mom.
3)go collect specs
4)go collect dry cleaning clothes
5)go grocery shopping

it may sound boring to u...but its been very long ago since i went out with parents.Actually going out with my parents always is because got some agenda to follow..like need to collect stuff then we will go out..but i am still happy like tat. =)

ok now i am watching YY love, got rainie yang, mike he, and this guy also quite shuai but i dunoe his name. The love story in these shows are always...romantic,idealistic,always has good ending...but in reality isit really like tat? BUt anws, just a random question that suddenly pops up... if u can choose, will u wan to have a stable relationship or one that is full of ups and down?...
actually i also dunnoe it myself.

anw,i am here to promote myself again... I CAN WASHCAR WOR... anyone needs a car washer?
=X

i am stil out of job.

ciao~

BORING~

2008-12-08T23:56:00.000-08:00

I want to find a job!
Sales, promoter, admin, clerk, data entry... at least $6/hour.. anyone want to hire me?
hahaha.
seriously,i really need cash for my expenses especially with the v ex chalet coming and christmas presents to buy!GRRR...
Also my Korean trip..i wan shopping de woR!haha.
Teach tuition also, eh.. upper primary to upper secondary also can. Pri: $20/hour sec:$25/hour..
Anyone wanna?!hahah.
Last resort...FIND ME A RICH BOYFREN.hahha.
ok i am too bored liao.

ciao~

>.<

2008-12-07T16:01:00.000-08:00

I had a surprise when i went to view my stagnant blog just now...SUDDENLY got so many viewed my blog la..shocking..but i guess its just passing "pedestrian" bloggers.
Anw, i was reading this book on Korean history.. just like a brief one (if not i think have to read super long). Just some afterthoughts:
i think we humans are really great. HAHA. We do a series of things! We are the species that bring in culture even tracing back to the BC when a group of huntergatherers had came together...i remb vaguely they had clustered in what is now mongolia.. (if i din remb wrongly).We are the species that created language. CAN U BELIEVE IT.. the device that allow each to know what each is talking.. the essential. Is it to survive or mere interest? Does it any case be linked to evolution? the survival of the fittest? That is why the cavemen are replaced by this group of intellectual beings? Again, we are also the species that created violence, war, pain and hatred.I always thought that to say that men created war even in the BCs was an overstatement. But as i was reading the book, even before the Josean and Gogurya dynasty (i think) was created, warlords reigning had been fighting to keep their territory and position. Is this a natural instinct? or a lesson taught to them to be learnt when young? Then again, i think its phase that is naturally occuring that MUST have happened for the species to develop...
The changing of the dynasty is due to the inability of the king to protect his kingdom... a subject of his with rising power often with the wish to save the kingdom...of cos also for himself.. overthrow him and take the position. However is violence neccessary? then if violence is not neccessary then.. is then neccessary now?

got somemore stuff to crap later. I GOING OUT with Khong now!so long nv see her alr.=X

ciao~

its not the time to quit..I WONT

2008-09-30T02:22:00.000-07:00

ALL U GUYS OUT THERE WHO ARE OUT TO SEE ESTHER TAN FAIL AND COLLAPSE IN TEARS LIKE A WEAKLING...I AM SO SORRY TO INFORM YOU THAT YOU WONT SEE THAT HAPPEN...=)
-T i am not saying u! haha. dun be sensitive.
i still got less than a month after working hard for 2 years on the bloody Alevels and i am not going to quit. I dont believe i will continue to fail GP... i am very weak at it...VERY.. but doesnt mean i am doomed. ANguS you just wait and see.. Even if i still dont do well for Alevels...at least I am clear of my conscience that i have tried my best that others are very much better than me.
For all those frens and family members that have been giving me support whenever i fail and looked super EMO, i really appreciate it and thnks! I hope you guys do very well for 'A' levels too.
I guess this will be like the last blog entry til the end of exams unless got something very exciting and interesting that i wanna to share here.
Sinhoe if you see this blog entry..STOP SLACKING AND WORK HARD! NO TIME LE! jia you k! =D
VOLTAIRE JIA YOU TOO!(: altho VOLTAIRE WONT SEE THIS! haha.

ciao~

the dark days and the bright future to come

2008-09-25T03:55:00.000-07:00

my day ytd was blue and gloomy.. remorse, regret and ALOT of mixed feelings made my day so terrible and suffocating. Walked home ytd from the mrt and mayb i did cry... cos ppl were staring at me. but i really dunnoe...i know i felt numb..
everyone is telling me their result... frens..ok.i really feel happy for them that they are getting good grades and especially those that work really hard.. i feel happy for them cos their efforts paid off.BUT SOME! i DIN ASK U TELL ME FOR WAT! WHAT IS UR INTENTION? YES U DID BETTER THAN ME...AND...THEN?
chill... ok ya so plus alot of stuff.. esther is officially in need of a counsellor..ytd felt terrible cos i got so many feelings trapped inside and i have no channels to express it. Sis is busy..mom dun understand (but she gave me a hug which felt better), N seems busy and Dad wont understand. Is blog the only chanel that i can relish my angony? Is blog the only ranting venue?
nvm..is over now.. life still moves on.
i start studying today.. i read bio and newspaper just now at the reading room...wasnt very constructive but at least i start.. the most difficult and important step is always the first ya? =D
anw.. i increased my readership! haha. TWSH is officially accepted to be the reader of this blog.. hahaha.. congrats.=)

ciao~

i failed GP=(

2008-09-21T22:08:00.000-07:00

ok i am upset that i fail GP. mid year was an E.. now fail.. i really dunnoe what to do in order to do well in that subject especially with alevels hot on my heels.. i really DUN wanna retake Alevels eh...but it seem so difficult to grasp.. i read newspaper.. i pay attention in class..why do i still fail...ppl who dun do all these still able to pass..WTH. unfair world can.
i hate angus cos she made me hate GP.
=(

i need some anti-depressant.

ciaO~

Bane of globalisation

2008-09-20T16:33:00.000-07:00

dun be mistaken...this is not an attempt to write another GP or geog essay..had enough of them!haha.
i going crap some stuff about the result furore over tainted chinese milk and other products. I cant help but wonder if these incidents were to happen 10years ago.. where china is not yet the main mfging country or not yet so connected with the rest of the world... would these incidents affect so many pple so far away? haix.. i am so upset that my FAVORITE MILK--> Dutch lady, may have problem! I just bought it can! then now need to throw it away... its like a childhood drink! =X I believe all these problems are all Man'S fault... it is all greed and the lack of concern for the society that had resulted in all bizaarre global phenomenon..cant help it but wonder what these ppl will actually gain by causing the death of 4 babies and causing so many pple getting sick! and of cos...caused me of my fav milk prdt. i was about to go and find some news article to put up here but ya no time!going out soon...
anw...shld i PS tml? sian leh tml like nothing much altho i feel like attending chem lect.

CIAO~

sweet surprise

2008-09-19T02:01:00.000-07:00

Elllo!

this week is kinda lucky... all my papers passed! so far tho the rest i am not sure.. my most worried paper.. GP is nt back yet! haix worried. kinda surprise i managed to pass all so far! phew~ but the result not tat good tho. abit disappointed with geog.. i think i deserve it larh..haix who ask me nv study.. or maybe i did.. a lil.. then who asked me not to start studyingEARLY! today went to voltaire de geog class.. i think their tutorial class very serious like very scary! and v is alone! like no one talk to v=C i stil prefer my geog tutorial class...like more noisy.. fun!
sian..my parents like nag at me 1000000 times to go prepare for tuition le..AH! i just wake up then very high inertia ma! keep nagging. anw..i official a nocturnal animal! my sleeping time is 1 to 5 pm. haha!!
oh yaya! i ordered a pair of running gear.. the person reco based on my foot structure.. i feels quite comfy tho a lil ex..but nvm i shall save up on my own! =D$110. i ordered le then realise i no money.haha.. bro in some kind of financial prob lately and ya i had to help him...if he cant settle this he can nv be free of debt.. let alone go and study and craft out a different future. even if it means myself being more tired and less money to spend.. i will DO ALL I CAN TO HELP U BRO! who ask me to have only one bro.hahaha. okok nag again!cya.

CIAO~

last day of prelims~

2008-09-15T20:25:00.000-07:00

torturous prelims is finally over ytd! but wat is coming is MUCH BIGGER THAN PRELIMS...
haha
ytd me, nic, xp, viv, zj, cc, joy and ber went to Sentosa siloso beach! we wanted to go palawan de then we dunoe how to go siloso nearer! lol. ya then we played beach volley until i now looked like cooked crab!hoho! but sunburn really painful! =X joy was sleeping thru out the beach trip can! haha pig. cc saw a guy tat look like BEBG..haha then keep staring..quite good looking larh..but go tattoo!
after tat we met t and yh for dinner...went susho tei! =D i add crab friedrice..like eating my fren like tat...cos look the same ah the color.. yep and went toysrus! oh man so long nv go there le.. but i realise i dun really like vivo..SO BIG! then like will easily lost..i dun like eh..prefer quiet and cosy feeling shopping center.. altho vivo quite good got alot of stuff, but like dun have an quan gan. =X
today the physics ppl still got exam..HAHA! but then they willhave the last laugh cos alevels their exams will end first! not faiR!! =X i going malaysia later with parents... i dunoe if school will let not but i guess they wont know? haha going shopping! very very very long time nv go there with them le.. since...sec3? used to go there like once a week? then sec4 got olvel then from then on jiu busy le! ok! my dad calling me to go bathe and going off! hoho! now kinda excited...

p.s. hope ber and cc faster send me the beach fotos then can upload and go print! =D

ciao~

Liverpool won MAn U!

2008-09-13T22:51:00.000-07:00

WoohhooOO! liverpool won man u 2-1 !
heres a link to bbc's report :
http://news.bbc.co.uk/sport2/hi/football/eng_prem/7601885.stm

=D

the monkey is still outside my house. Ytd chaotic! pple standing outside and policemen too. the monkey stole orange from some other ppl's home and ate on my roof! then all the orange skin there also!haha. quite cute tho it scared me ytd. eh tml going to call ppl to catch it away... BYEBYE MONKEY~

tml going sentosa with my gang of frens!=D so cool v long nv go there le! after that going vivo city! +D

ciao~

Mad dash for Alevels + the monkey epi!

2008-09-12T23:01:00.000-07:00

ok..this week was a total flop.. a total disappointment.. u can just name any negative words to describe the week i think that it will also be suitable.. The papers... at least to me... are all super hard.. but guess part of the reason is i wasnt prepared for the papers.. too slack. haix. ytd bio was another paper of disappointment, (someone cried i guess out of her not being able to do the paper.. i wish i cried.. but i know i deserve it so i know i shldnt...) not mentioning math tat was nv easy bfore. =( disappointment shld stop today.. i shall make a mad dash for Alevels. i dun wan to be the loser, i dun want to be the one crying my lungs out next year march when get back result. JIA YOU HUIYI!
ANW... just now a monkey came and visited me at my window..SHOCKING! my mom saw a monkey afew days ago and she shooed it away then i think it din went away larh probably just wander about the neighbourhood. Then just now when i was using the com my neighbour called and inform us the monkey is at her roof! OMG. then me and mom immediately closed all windows and doors and wateveR! LUCKY i did it before the monkey came. cannot imagine if it enters the house. I know it just wanna some food... but the who knows whether it will wreak havoc.. mom say there is more than one monkey! got some neighbour saw some crossing the expressway towards our estate afew days back. I wonder where are these monkeys from. The monkey at the window (it just left a few mins ago) dun look like the ones i saw at upper pierce the other day.. Different breed... then i was wondering if they escaped from the zoo... which is not say very far from here.. BUT on foot its quite far leh! then again zoo so nice place why would a monkey wannna leave? anw.. my called the dunoe wat agency and they are ON LEAVE on SAT AND SUN! as if animals dun run about on weekends... as if the animals on weekends too wont wreak havoc..! URGH. shldnt all have break on weekends ma... routine? aiyah its not up to me to say also. I hope the monkey gets caught soon.. abit evil larh..but then its kinda scary to have something at the window staring at u! it looked fierce. =X

CIAO~

start of DOOMSDAY

2008-09-08T21:38:00.000-07:00

oh man.. PRELIMS..
OH MAN X 100.. i am not prepared for it!
damn.. blame myself for my laziness... blame myself for my playfulness.. the prelims damn hard! dunnoe if it is hard for me only.. BUT... even if it means others find it hard to doesnt mean tat i shld not be able to do it! haix..
the thing is... i am stil watching shows now..oH MAN!
tml is geog paper. i dun wanna disappoint miss huang.. but then i seem to have lost watever motivation it takes to open up my books to start studying. i no cannot like tat.. but i just cannot change.. I DUNOE WHY.. lol.. mayb i procrastinate too much.. i WILL CHANGE...soon..gradual~
haix.

ciao~

PRE-prelim

2008-09-07T00:08:00.000-07:00

OMG tml is prelim. so dead. seriously.. i havent been studying much.. and i m still watching the academy.. the hk show now..haix! wat is wrong with me man! >_<
ok very long nv rant le!
anw..I AM GOING KOREA! WOOHOO!! 30thdec.. haha.. there will be super cold.. between -2 to 0deg!! going with aga de family, xp, viv, wh,fel and MOM! too bad khong cant go..if not we keep laughing at korea sure not cold le.cos laughing is an exothermic process..lol. CHEM P3 tml u see..
haha.. going jeju and some other cities + seoul! LOOK FORWARD! actually..i m look forward more for alevel to finish.. so sian of seeing everyone studying and nagging me to study.. I am sian of all the gou xin dou jiao.. like everyone telling everyone they not studying but in actual fact they are.. URGH. dun like. so hopefully alevels finish then we are still good frens! =D
things to do after alevels:
1) buy dress for sis wedding
2) buy go korea de winter wear
3) find a job
4) learn new lang!
5) watch shows like nv before! hahha.. (altho i am alr doing so.)
khong told me about B calling her ytd and she super angry. i hear le kinda of sian also...like why mus she do tat! makes everythin seem so fake. i tot studying is suppose to be fun thing..(i like studying - exams)
oh.. ytd the tutor from caravan bb came and sub mrs yak for a session. me and khong DAMN SHOCK! i was like... eh..this person very familiar..why he like teach me bfore.. then i oH!him..haha. then khong aiyo-ed him then think he heard.haha.his teaching not bad larh...but me and khong abit rude..cos we keep laughing..NOT AT HIM! but among ourselves cos we keep doing silly stuffs. he was suppose to tell me why f'(x) curve cannot have a point of inflexion de! then i think he forgot he wanna explain to me..then he walk out le! i still tot he wil come back then we sat there awhile then left! nvm..maybe ask cheeky to ask him.
tml is bio p3 and chem p3! SHIT.
ok i go watch show le!

CIAO~

Gp pApEr

2008-08-26T23:55:00.000-07:00

Haix.. had GP prelims today!
paper1 was ok i guess i had example and my reasoning sound logical to ME..but everytime i tot it was ok it turned out disastrous.. NVM.. whats gone is gone.hoho!

ok i met mom for lunch at this canto restaurant in lot1! i treat her! see her eat untill so happy i see le also happy=D too bad granny will pant if walk too much then she cannot come out..if not its nice for her to walk walk and not always couped at home!
i told my mom my plan of opening an orphanage.. she din laugh at me! =) i tot she will say that i am very unrealistic.. but she did say that i need alot of funds tho!tat i know!! not only have to provide lodging and education... food and clothes are the basic neccessities! must start to save up and find jobs.. Jobs,anyone?

my dream is to be able to open one by 35.. by then my career shld be stable.. and maybe have my own family.. then open one orphanage.. go there maybe monthly while i have to ppl to take care of it? then when i turn 45 i m going to retire and run my orphanage wholeheartedly (i need funds u know).. start off with orphanage.. then as the kids grow up.. they will need to find themselves a job..then i will probably open a small factory that produces basic goods like cloths or like soap and wats so ever that the ppl there lack..job for the kids and then the goods produced sell at cheap price to the local. One stone kill 2 birds! =D If i enuff money i will wan to open a school of my own.I feel that education is the most effective way that these rural poor and abandoned can come out of the poverty's vicious cycle to have a better life. Education empowered me with the tool to do well in my life.. i hope i can use this power i have to do the same for others. My mom suggested i look into the elderly first.. mmm but i guess when i start off.. i wont have the money to provide the much required medical facilities for the elderly..so i will stick to orphanage first.

i shall go and continue to research on how do i start of this orphanage plan!

ciao~

Sad Story

2008-08-26T04:04:00.000-07:00

why are there always sad story and it always involved money?
its very sad that when u are old no one can take care of u... especially when they ignore u becos they have no money to take care of u. reminds me of the money no enough show 2 when the 3 sons cannot afford to take good care of their ailing mom. the story seem to be a scary de jaavu happening at home. I will take care of her. Wait for me to earn money.. for now.. wat little i can do is to give whateva amt i have. hopefully it helps.

anw.. i realise East Asian countries.. meaning our region has the largest no. of orphan pop.. ok my journey to help them to release some misery shall start from SEA. I shall start embarking on my plan on which country should i open my first orphanage.. plan is one thing... where can i get my funds?WORK HARD! sigh. Hope they can wait.. u guys jia you too!

ciao~

SAD

2008-08-22T07:59:00.000-07:00

M took S's money again...THen as usual, S was totally flared up and I am pissed off that this is happen again! especially bfore major exams like the prelim and alevel?URGH.
M mus have her KU ZHONG for wanting to do that.. but the thing is she like nv think of the consequences. M took from me before but i was pissed awhile then ok le but S surely angry v long de can! and S is stressed enuff. =( how i wish i got the money to return it for M. but the last time wrong when i gave B and M all the money i am officially bankrupt. haix. wat to do?
maybe i shld rob a bank..
haha..
WTH..
i wil stick to studying for exams..
seems more feasible. haix.
ok i wilthink of waste to solve it since i love them all and i dun wanna see them get angry and sad!=l

OH! i played volleyball with 10 today. THeir class so united can! the guys and girls mingled so well.. haix.. think about my class also sian.. everyone is studying.. dun misread me.. i am not discouraging them to study.. studying a good and crucial now.. BUT.. sometimes outing no one goes de leh! then the reason is they wanna study. abit depressing. =( i hope we can have more time to interact and know each other better.. but dun seem to have the time le. haix.
anw..just ended tuition.. so tiring.. everyone seem so prepared for exam and I AM NOT.blah.. heck..i will just do my best.

LI jia wei lost! 2 blows for her today.. both from the Chinese. BUT ITS OK JW! You played with faith and lost with pride. Playing with better players sure makes u more experienced and play better the next time round. =D

ciao

THURSDAY!

2008-08-21T00:23:00.000-07:00

haha! first period was chemistry! mdm lee WERI cute..=D
after that had pe lesson.. ran 2 runs then played floorball. haix.. i feel so guilty to huiwen..cos i promise her i wont run fast le..but just cannot control larh! like.. i dun like the feeling of running behind ppl.. like i wanna be faster.. haix.. guilty..at least i compensated by runing another round behind her after PE.haha.wat a lan compensation..
anw..FLOORBALL quite fuN! but i was kinda retarded larh..i cant handle sticks well man.. then so many times i hit to the opponent! like wat the hell!! hahaha.. but i scored one oK!=D Voltaire was at some higher ground watching..hoho.. HE WAS WATCHING HIS CLASSMATE PLAY LARH! WHAT ARE YOU GUYS THINKING OF MAN! xp they all damn high..dunnoe for wat. I feels kinda weird actually. anw.. hope his leg faster recover... (:
yar then watched awhile of table tennis Feng and nederlands (i dunoe why they spell it this way).. FENG IS MY IDOL CAN! she played damn well.. wah but i very irritated by this 08 guy he support the opponent..like wat the hell! ppl from ur country u dun support u go support another one that i dun even know what is the actual name of the countrY! BETRAYER! then some more infront of so many Singapore fan shout and clap leh..wat the hell. >_<
ok after that was nothing much alr... gave P his Tcher's day gift..hope he like it!=D
gave him classfoto and everyone's note and some sweet.. he say he nv see the class foto before =.=
ya so here i m watching this taiwan show.."fated to love you" like nice can!
but the Xinyi jus got miscarriaged.. so sad.. POOR JINIANPING (the baby in the womb's name).Now the Dylan just scolded her for not standing up to wat she deserved and always getting looked down as "post-it" girl by the ppl around her..collegues all looking down at her. cant help wondering if there are such pple around us today.. probably yes.. wonder if what they been through have been similar to hers. There is this issue of a person being unneccessary and self-worth. SO wat is self-worth? is it qualitative or quantitative term? can we measure it? Dylan said something that is quite true. everyone has only got 1 brain... it is up to us to use and by our ability and our need to use it.. it will determine ourself worth.. BUT... is it always thru for all circumstances? what if the person is born into a world that doesnt allow her to even choose to use her brain? if such situation is placed on another.. would things turn out differently?at many times, we always complain that we are not given a chance.. but when we ARE REALLY given the chance.. can we grasp it? DO we even know that this is a chance? I really don't know... Does hard work really pay off? If so, why are their still hardworking people still remaining at where they are.. not improving?

=(

ciao~

khong's lunar birthday!

2008-08-20T06:20:00.000-07:00

yay! Feel all happy and excited for my BEST fren's lunar birthday! haha but that phrase, u shld have guessed that it is not the exact day.. we brought the date forward! haha. rationalE: cos the present i bought for her is distraction based...buy it early so that she wont get distracted when alevel comes! (although it is INDEED coming)
anw.. ya today was a TOTALLY boring day except maybe for GEOG? haha. MS huang quite entertaining..and i am amazed can! she can speed thru urban so fast. lol
Ya went to watch Journey to the centre of the Earth today. HOHO! quite nice.. mmm the effects and visual impacts are unexpecting then i think its quite cool! i give 4 star out of 5! =D but correctly pointed by MCO, some science facts in the story like the chronology in which dinosaurs should have appeared is wrong! and the nature of volcano in Iceland..mmm.. is like tat one meh? but its nice larh! if there really lies a centre of the earth.. and i tell that it is a haven.. but in order to get it u have to risk you life.. will u go for it or to stay where u are? i guess as of now.. i will choose to stay put. my definition of haven may be different from yours, my apologises, i feel that a haven is some where u live comfortably with your loved ones and you are doing things that you have passion in. If i go to the centre of the earth, firstly: i may lose my life, secondly: without my frens and family (not all possibly so heng can make it there) i don't think its quite of haven anymore, thirdly: what am i going to do whole day?! like HARLO!! there only got plants and animals.. grow crops? ya my point is, many people often try to find the most perfect thing in life, but often they failed to understand what is actually most impt. In the world where paper chase is a social norm, are we losing our human characteristic ie love etc. the very factor that distinguish us, homosapiens, from the animals?
okok digress.. the show is nice.=D
anw ya so after the show we walked about AMK then i bought muffins! actually i dun feel like eating them.. but i saw them and reminds me of my neighbour! she always share good food with us and altho my mom often buy food for them (the sharing interaction), i still wanna buy them nice things!she is nice.haha. In the past, I always thought that receiving gift, i will be the riches and happiest and fulfilled person! But as I grow and mature, seeing many things come and go, materials seem less trivial especially in the face of phenomena crisis around the world me realise how minute i am to the world.. material goods are not going to get me the whatever spiritual achievement and stuff. and YA! i was super happy i bought the muffin today. just like just now when i pass Khong the present and the newspaper articles of Li,Feng,Wang, Phelps and Tao Li. Maybe seeing people being happy is what gives me the fufilment gut feeling bah. Can you image the viral dissesmination of happiness? If i help 1 or make 1 person happy today. he or she inturns do the same for another.. like VIRUS! i hope the world, seemingly to be horrifying and ugly, will become better. There is saying that babies who just arrived are the purest at heart, it is the environment that corrupt them .Then I have a small wish, whatever small acts we do each day will collectively changed the "corrupting" atmosphere.. our newborns will be really INNOCENT.
crap.lol.=D

CIAO~

first TRUnCATED TUesDAy

2008-08-19T00:56:00.000-07:00

ok today at least dun have GP as my first lesson.
today is totally boring! Chem was ok..mdm lee was darn cute!=D
then watched this grp of j2s playing volleyball as their PE lesson. SO envious of their pe lesson with mr chua!his lesson v fun de.lol.
math test. WOAH! FUN! haha. first time i finish a test 15 mins before it end stil got time to check. BERT!! stil got one careless! i must prac more le!so tat no more careless mistakes!=D
then chem..charming went thru the mcq..quite good.=D at least i learnt something new..=D
then CIVICS...
resume.. interview..
oh at the end of civics, one guy fell down! Flat on his face! OUCH! i think his chin bled. I know how that felt like! my chin kenna tat and stitch bfore! =( i hope he is ok! hope no deep scar and recover asap!
ok then went meet sinhoe pass him the prelim book and here i m using the com!
watching - fated to love you. its quite nice. altho abit typical of taiwan show but i CHEN QIAO EN! =P

CIAO~

2008-08-18T03:08:00.000-07:00

Extracted from BBC:

Singapore into table tennis final
Singapore are guaranteed their first Olympic medal since 1960 after beating South Korea to reach the final of the women's table tennis team event.
Feng Tianwei, who, like the rest of the Singapore team, is an import from China, won both her singles matches to help them clinch a tense 3-2 victory.
Singapore face favourites China in the final after they thumped Hong Kong 3-0.
"For us to get to the final, we feel like we have already done really well," said Feng's team-mate Li Jia Wei.
Tan Howe Liang's weightlifting silver in Rome was Singapore's only previous Olympic medal.
OLYMPICS BLOG
BBC blogger Tom Fordyce takes on the Beijing locals
Their table tennis coach Liu Guodong said: "I feel very honoured. I've been in Singapore for just over two years and can help it get an Olympic medal, at least a silver, for the first time in 48 years."
Feng, who got Singapore off to a winning start in the first match of the tie, held her nerve to beat Park Mi-Young in the deciding rubber and send the second seeds through.
"In a battle like that, everyone is nervous," said Feng. "So if you can just keep it cool then you have got an advantage."
China did not drop a game on their way to victory, with Yining Zhang and Yue Guo winning their singles matches before Zhang teamed up with Nan Wang to triumph in the doubles and seal their success.
Following their loss, South Korea will play in the semi-finals of the bronze medal competition and face the United States, who beat Romania 3-1 earlier on Friday.
Japan, who beat Austria 3-0, will play Hong Kong.
In the first round of the men's bronze medal competition, Hong Kong eliminated Taiwan and will play the losers of the China-South Korea tie. Austria saw off Croatia and will play either Japan or Germany.
Find out about the Beijing table tennis venue
Story from BBC SPORT:http://news.bbc.co.uk/go/pr/fr/-/sport2/hi/olympics/table_tennis/7562910.stmPublished: 2008/08/15 12:16:08 GMT© BBC MMVIII

We lost to China but stay hopeful for another 4 years lateR!

2008-08-18T02:20:00.000-07:00

FInals ended with team singapore losing 0-3 to host China.
Before the game i told myself that Singapore has wat it takes to reach the Finals.. she has wat it takes to win China. Even just be the game ended, I stil believe a miracle will happen. It may not be the very super miracle occurence tat we all hope to see.. but Singapore...being such a small red dot being able to make it to the finals itself is really a miracle being fought hard for by the many people in Team singapore. Some of us are cynical, saying that Li, Feng and Wang are from China too, so its like China VS China in some sense during the Finals. But look at it this way, where we are born does not determine and does not have a direct relation to where our passion and love reside. Li came to Singapore from young, it may be opportunity she sees when she decided to come to Singapore but i choose to believe that it is her love for our country that made her stay on. With her skill and potential, i believe she has wat it takes to go to another country that can even offer her better. WHy stay on? maybe its being used to Singapore, maybe... maybe... but the fact remains that she stay on to fight for and with singapore till the end.:)
Feng is a star arising... i am sure her coolness can get her v far in the next olympics! =D

Just some thoughts..
CIAO~

2008-08-16T22:00:00.000-07:00

Singapore is into the FINALS!
I applaud the performance of the table tennis players in their fight against the Koreans in the semi-finals on friday. Their tenacity, their confidence and their will power really made their game works! Altho there were set back here and there they held on and WIN!
Later the finals will be on! 7.30pm in channel u and 5. No matter how slim our chances may have been estimated to be, I still believe in that 0.005% chance that we will win!JIAYOU!
On friday, i caught sight of another AJ. We were all glued to the TV around our school and especially amongst the JC2s, we took turn to go outside the Audi during the test to look at the score during the test. I am not saying that it is good to be distracted during the test, i am commenting on the teamwork! FIRST TIME! CROSS CLASSES! and its the first time i hear AJ scream in unison for a common goal... ie to win a medal in the Olympics after a 48 years wait. PS: even during sports day i don't see such enthusiastic uproar.ROCK On AJ!

ciao~

sianz~

2008-08-14T05:26:00.000-07:00

The following is the list of things i need to remind myself to blog about:
1) Money no enough movie
2)What happened during PE lesson today
3)What happened during geog lect..the iron lady and bull devil king story
4)What happened during tuition

wanted to rant about them today... but there are tests tml! Math stats and bio class test..sian bio tut is a waste of time. how i wish i can pon it. oh almost forget tml got Geog time praC AGAIN~
tired.

CIAO~

NEW RESOLUTION!

2008-08-11T07:03:00.000-07:00

ESTHER TAN IS SICK OF SLACKING INFRONT OF COMPUTER!
today shall be the last time i am using com to watch videos online and play random games!
less than 3 mths from ALEVELS i need to buck up!!
RULES:
-i shall use internet onli once everyweek
-each time less than 2 hrs
-most of time use the school one so tat i wont play games
-NO MORE VIDEOS!
-finish all hw bfore using computer!!

URGH!
JIAYOU!
ciao~

Photos!!

2008-08-10T00:36:00.000-07:00

Here are somme photos i got from www.ndp.org.sg/ I love the fireworks! =D

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!

2008-08-09T02:27:00.000-07:00

COOL!! 43RD birthday!

5 reasons i love SIngapore!:
1)its safe
2)my friends are here
3)my family is here!
4)pple here are quite nice (exclude tingle of kiasu-ness and kiasi-ness and Kayponess)
5)SINGAPORE came a long way to achieve what she has today! *applaud*=)

crap
ciao~

badminton day!

2008-08-07T05:30:00.000-07:00

hiz...Recently sure lots of things happen man..
first is the GP study grp incident. shant elaborate much incase words get out and get wagged about..basically its about the dispute over difference in ideas...now thinking whether shld stop the discussion grp thingy..
then is J and Y de incident..it started of as a small thing when J made a comment on something she wanna do then cun decide then asks the ppl around her for opinion. the apparently Y (according to J) made a comment on J.. ya then wrote on her blog..then J saw..VOLA! fiery smses flying about...technology saves the innocent from violence due to war. DIscuss.. haha..how i wish i can write this eg... SURE A.. BERT...too bad i cant. anw..i hope the strained relationship can mend one day.
NEXT N and C. haix.. i dunnoe..maybe its my fault i ask N to go the back w me cos we suppose to give HW present..then N also wanna see her rxn then she moved to the back with me.. THEN C angry tat she left her alone.. AND ITS VERY ANGRY.. i dunoe why i feel angry for N.. i dun feel tat she did anything wrong..all of us perplexed by why C is angry.. even Z dun dare to talk to her abt it..later they quarrel again. i guess C is just stress.. then N was the triggering factor. haix. Does familiarity always breed contempt? Discuss.
SIAN...why am i always thinking of GP?
G made a comment on my paper 2 time prac tat i can aim for an A for GP. Like is it really possible? i failed leh..to jump to an A. haix.. nonetheless still thankful she had such faith in me..very nan de.. i will work hard! 3 moremths..!
played badminton at MPH today after school. feel so relaxed and healthy now.. i guess when work gets piled up, exercise can really help. =D kinda tired tho..my arms!! Voltaire and company walked pass MPH just now..WootS! Z they all nv tell me! later i do weird actions again how?! LARKY at tat time i din..haha.
VOLTAIRE COOL!-->confirmed from ytd geog lect.hahhaa.
tml is national celebratioN!! i love SINGAPORE! i m serious.. haha.. only place i got all my frens and family around. if i do get to realise my dream tat i wrote in my previous few post of going overseas to open orphanages.. Singapore will still be my home.. =D
happy 43rd birthday SINGAPORE! (ps incase i not coming online so soon!0:)

STagNant no more!

2008-07-30T04:19:00.000-07:00

haix.its been a long time since i blogged. Just cun find the write mood and the time to sit down here to share my thoughts and wat i have been doing these days.. but then... wats the diff? no one visits this other than myself..
shall start ranting from the past to the present..

1) I decided the life i wanna have when i earn enough money in my 30s and 40s!
ok, mayb this is still a very long way for me since my 18th bdae just passed..i wanna earn alot alot of money! then i wan to bring these money to open up an orphanage or an education institute for the poor ppl in those LDCs(so geog).. that time watch the XI YOU JI the belinda show where she go and find those singaporeans residing overseas. got 2 of them set up schools and orphange in those poor countries to help them... very touched in a sense that they are willing to give up comfort and good ed for them kids and want to play their part to make this world a much better place to live in for these ppl. the ppl there especially orphans are really very poor thing!! I hope i can do that to help them too! FUNDS PROB! but i guess i wont do it so early? i need to take care of my parents first...that one is top priority.. buy nice food, nice clothes.. house for them!

2)I totally hate my 18th birthday..
my mom gave me ang pow..and i am infuriated and hurt.. How many times must i tell them! i Dun wanna money! Why mus they always compare the amt of love they give me based on the amt of money spent? I have nv receive any present from them both before on my birthdays... and i am just asking for a simple gift..on my 18th..is it very diff? seriously.. if they had given me a birthday card... write wat they wan to tell me in the card.. i would have been very very happy. Why mus ppl all be so materialistic? Basing on the value of the gift by the amt of money spent on it.. like wats the meaning of a gift? then she say she got no time.. like wat is she doing at home?? scared my dad know? buying a gift for me tat shameful? that offensive that it deserved to be censored? i dunnoe... i resort to thinking tat if she had just given me a foolscap paper with words.. would i then be happier...yea birthday is one of the days in my life that i feel valueless.

3) i played volleyball ytd and badminton today!!haha.
feel so healthy can! after so long i still can play badminton! haha! i remb badminton like occupy almost my whole childhood memories.. HDB flats de void deck..with cousins and neighbours.. haha..missed those times.. now i dun even recognise my neighbours! wat a pity! yea we shall continue to play badminton and volley everyweek! 2 hrs each week on wed! keep fit and healthy ready to take exams!! =D

end of post.. hope those stay stagnant for too long! =D

SLEEPY DAY!

2008-06-19T22:16:00.000-07:00

Ytd was horrible, I feel tat i was on Opium! WTH! I woke up at 11plus, then i slept at 1 to 5pm..then felt sleepy still so i watched tv all the way to 11.. haix. everyone is telling me to study, dun regret when i fail, but just cant seem to get the momentum to study. sian larh.. but i know guys meant well, and i am really thankful. I promise i will study, not for MYE maybe, for mock,prelims and Alevels.I will.
I was watched DA CHANG JIN!Altho i watched it like Nth times but then i still find the show nice... Altho i have to admit all the guys not handsome other than the Min ZhengHao.. the girls all not pretty (even changjin) but the show like depicts human nature, the nature to compete the nature to want to eliminate strong opponents to rise to the top.. And typically in shows,the good ppl win in the end.=D but in reality, how often does the poor and innocent win against the scheming rich?
Next i watched the 7 and 9 drama shows, both had a common characteristic. The guys in both shows are not zhuan yi (seeing other girls when they had girlfren or married). Like the Adam in the 7pm show, 2 timing felicia chin and the other girl (huang hui i think).. WTH! you think you emperor and have so many wives and concubines ah! then the 9pm show, the zoe tay's husband, dunnoe whats his name larh, the wife so nice still dun appreciate, everytime scold her and still got extramarital affairs! wth.. anw,i think the mani is revenge or for money de leh, she dun seem to be like those tat will like him de feeling. haha.
Next i watched the 10 pm the hongkong law show. I like the Parents and the Yiyan and Dick. =D
they very cute, then the things they say also very meaningful also. I dislike the way the Yixin handles things and the way she treats her husband. The husband very nice to her lo, she stil go have extra-marital affair with the Shixi! what's wrong with all the shows today, all about cheating each other. haix. i guess maybe that is how things work now. =X
Wah come to think about it, i really watch show the whole time i am awake.haha.. i can be TV guide le.haha.
Later got chem tuition! i go watch online shows le! CIAO~

ytd i shopped with half

2008-06-17T18:19:00.000-07:00

heyhey!
ytd i went shopping with half, so long since we did shopping. I bought a singlet and hairclip for myself, a book for my bro, my dasao's birthday present and the pretty post it pad for sis.. dunnoe why i feel more happy buying stuff for them than for myself..haha. +D
i went to school at about 2 to collect my broader perspective and GP reading file from the locker. chore.haha. then i went amk hub meet her..went to this small shop tat sells all those very cool shirts then went town! wisma,taka...far east..WAH from wisma to far east REALLY VERY FAR..maybe tat's why its call far east..=_=haha. ya half treat me to gelare! won the bet on something also because ytd was tues then half price.. super nice larh the waffle...crispy + the nice nice icecream! YUMMY! we went o2 skin after that.. I wanna complain ah! they will nv get a GEM recommendation from me. what the hell larh, the employee like give us the "aiyah they cannot afford anything face" WTH! then we wanted to use this voucher right,but must spend 50 bucks and above de mah. then she was like "Nono you all nv spend more than 50!" her tone! URGH..was quite determine to spend tat amount, but there is nothing there i wan to get to 50 u see..like so irritating. then when we paid she also v sarcastic.. "oh u all nv spend more than 50 eh."i felt like slapping her! CHILL!!
after that was ok...we shop shop shop...wah tired!! then suddenly i got migraine.. kinda serious eh my head like going to burst like tat..GOSH! wat is happening to me man! URGH.after half went home and i went lot1 buy highlighter...lot1 changed alot. well, everyone is constantly changing what's up with it changing. But it aint the lot1 it use to be, no homely feeling, everything becomes mere commodity..
i think today is gona be another slack day as i just loaded a show to watch! hehe.=D CIAO~

Tenacity of the Yang Warriors

2008-06-16T06:26:00.000-07:00

I spent the past 10 hours online watching the young warriors of the yang.. other than the fact that the show is super nice, i learnt wat is call real tenacity, passion and love for their own country.They are willing to risk their lives to protect their country.. even when the emperor betrayed them, they are willing to protect wat they believed. Were they real historic characters? or make beliefs? If they are real, I think Song country shld be very proud they had such warriors. =D
I really recommend this show.=P
CIAO~

2nd last weekend of my june hols.

2008-06-15T20:12:00.000-07:00

hasn't been able to use the internet the past 2 days as my sister needs it for work. I dun really need it anw, so its ok.=D
the past 2 days was SLACK! i really hadnt been able to find the momentum to study. This is the last week of the hols and i havent start with my homework~ which is = to 12 essay outlines, 12 newspaper articles, 2 geog essays and the individual group homework for geog. OMG la.. nvm i will try my v best to complete it before 30th june..probably leave abit to chiong after MYE. haix.
Seriously, i doubt i can do well for MYE with the little amt of time i spend studying..everyone is mugging like SIAO! i must really stop procrastinating, its getting me nowhere. I guess mayb not doing well for MYE serve as a alarm bell for me.. ALevels is like 4 mths away? that's scary, actually i still cant believing i am taking alevels this year can.haha.
yea talking about the weekend, was totally uninteresting, TV TV TV.. and yea we did "celebrate" Father's day...but what kind of celebration is that? just having a buffet at home, everyone busy eating and talking among themselves, i dunno leh, it just dun gimme the mood that it is a celebration. Maybe it is what we called the generation gap, maybe to them, being together, seeing each other eat is a celebration.. YADAYADA...
Ytd i watched the show "Charlie and the chocolate factory". =P Willy Wonka's love for candies and chocolates has been surpressed in his childhood as his strict dentist daddy refuse to get him any as you know its bad for the teeth. Willy left home thinking that his daddy doesnt love and doesnt care about him and work hard to build the largest chocolate factory in the world. Ageing made Willy decided to find a heir so as to pass the factory to him, and he sent out the golden tickets to 5 kids. Charlie was on of them. The other 4 kids and their parents were punished in their own way for not listening to Willy's advices as they got into trouble one by one and get thrown out of his factory. Charlie was the winner and Willy decided to give him the factory with the condition that he has to leave his family behind. Charlie refused the offer as his family meant the world to him, meant more than any world amt of choc can give. This shattered Willy's faith in that chocolate is the most impt thing in the world and his business gets into decline. One day Willy meant charlie and told him about his story. Charlie accompanied Willy to visit his old father and realised that his dad had kept every bit of information about him and is still waiting for Willy to come home. yea, reunited and the factory was saved and charlie is the heir to the factory with his family living with him.=P I guess it is a sad thing to not realise that sometimes the things parents do are for your own good..like in Willy's case, his set of teeth has been healthy and clean throughout his lifetime with the good foundation his dad instill him. I think there must be balance between control set by parents that children must follow and freedom for child to explore that makes his childhood meaningful. Many times parents would stop us from doing things as they know that we will fall and hurt ourselves. Yes, intention good.. and injuries prevented.But can they follow us through our entire lifetime to tell us what we shld do and shldn't? What if one day we need to take a step and parents are busy that day to tell us what to do? Will we take that step even if that step meant the opening up of a new whole lot of opportunities?
Shall stop crapping on the above issue...i think it will just go on and on and on. Tml going shopping with Nicole after meeting to study in the morning! =D Probably not blogging tml.. i will miss u dear blog.=P

I just watched a nice show!

2008-06-12T23:06:00.000-07:00

ok feel quite contented now as i just finished watching this interesting show on FBI and romance.. its called My Mom's new boyfriend.. (..or is it without the new?). Anws, I am super amazed by the change in the mom over 2 years where she transformed from a 90kg plus woman into a super thin trendy lady..I guess she did it for her son? Maybe she feel that she had been dragging her son down all these years. The son and his fiancee are both FBI agent, how cool is that dude. haha.The mom met this guy which the bureau targetted him as an international art thief and the bureau bugged the mom and the guy. Mom upset that she got cheated again... TURN oUT, the guy is a CIA agent trying to catch the other 2 thief. =D I dun really know what is the difference between CIA and FBI but i thought that since both agency are trying to catch the same thief, isn't cooperation more effective? weird.

Feel super irritated at the moment my parents came home..URGH..why am i like that, but ya just sudden build up of frustration..I really dun mean it man.. haix.
Ok i have tuition later,better stop using computer and get some rest before that.
ciaO~

First entry. =P

2008-06-11T22:53:00.000-07:00

heyhey! this is my first entry!
Suddenly have the urge to write down my list of the things i wanna do after my Alevels..here it goes!
Things to do after Alevels:
1) Go on a holiday with my besties.. (hongkong?Thailand?)
2)Help in the preparation of my sister's wedding
3)Get a job!
4)Learn a new language.(Korean? German?)
5)Learn Archery!
6)Go back AJ and help the girls with their trainings (altho cant provide much help in terms of skills, i guess cheering them helps?=D)

Yesterday watched this old channel 8 show at 11pm- Honour and Passion- i think. The one on army one? they all looked so cool in the army uniform. Maybe saying this will offend some, but if i am a guy, I will actually look forward to NS. True to say that guys waste 2 years of their prime in NS while the girls get to Uni earlier than them..but i feel that NS really brings out the patriotism in them to see the need to protect this small nation. History thought us the need to be self sufficient, history thought us the need to protect ourselves. I salute to the frontline soldiers protecting our nation tirelessly so that we can live in our comfort zones. I feel that learning humility from NS also brings out a better person.
Anws, I dun like the Encik Poh in the show because he discriminates. He discriminated XiaoNuo because of her disabilities and disallow his son wenzhong to be with her and also his youngest son because he thought that his son was very lazy. I guess parents do this very often in the name of protecting their kids from harm. I agree, the intention is very good. Experience from parents can prevent ourselves from making costly mistakes in life that may rob us of many years and opportunities in our lives. But i disagree of the actions they make take in doing so. Robbing their kids the chance to try things out, letting them decide what they wan in their lives is a nono. Maybe part of my life is like tat, decisions are readily made by my parents causing me to feel so... tired and not respected.

Going to watch my favorite show online! Young warriors of the yang clan..haha. =D