Haix.. had GP prelims today!
paper1 was ok i guess i had example and my reasoning sound logical to ME..but everytime i tot it was ok it turned out disastrous.. NVM.. whats gone is gone.hoho!

ok i met mom for lunch at this canto restaurant in lot1! i treat her! see her eat untill so happy i see le also happy=D too bad granny will pant if walk too much then she cannot come out..if not its nice for her to walk walk and not always couped at home!
i told my mom my plan of opening an orphanage.. she din laugh at me! =) i tot she will say that i am very unrealistic.. but she did say that i need alot of funds tho!tat i know!! not only have to provide lodging and education... food and clothes are the basic neccessities! must start to save up and find jobs.. Jobs,anyone?

my dream is to be able to open one by 35.. by then my career shld be stable.. and maybe have my own family.. then open one orphanage.. go there maybe monthly while i have to ppl to take care of it? then when i turn 45 i m going to retire and run my orphanage wholeheartedly (i need funds u know).. start off with orphanage.. then as the kids grow up.. they will need to find themselves a job..then i will probably open a small factory that produces basic goods like cloths or like soap and wats so ever that the ppl there lack..job for the kids and then the goods produced sell at cheap price to the local. One stone kill 2 birds! =D If i enuff money i will wan to open a school of my own.I feel that education is the most effective way that these rural poor and abandoned can come out of the poverty's vicious cycle to have a better life. Education empowered me with the tool to do well in my life.. i hope i can use this power i have to do the same for others. My mom suggested i look into the elderly first.. mmm but i guess when i start off.. i wont have the money to provide the much required medical facilities for the elderly..so i will stick to orphanage first.

i shall go and continue to research on how do i start of this orphanage plan!

ciao~

why are there always sad story and it always involved money?
its very sad that when u are old no one can take care of u... especially when they ignore u becos they have no money to take care of u. reminds me of the money no enough show 2 when the 3 sons cannot afford to take good care of their ailing mom. the story seem to be a scary de jaavu happening at home. I will take care of her. Wait for me to earn money.. for now.. wat little i can do is to give whateva amt i have. hopefully it helps.

anw.. i realise East Asian countries.. meaning our region has the largest no. of orphan pop.. ok my journey to help them to release some misery shall start from SEA. I shall start embarking on my plan on which country should i open my first orphanage.. plan is one thing... where can i get my funds?WORK HARD! sigh. Hope they can wait.. u guys jia you too!

ciao~

M took S's money again...THen as usual, S was totally flared up and I am pissed off that this is happen again! especially bfore major exams like the prelim and alevel?URGH.
M mus have her KU ZHONG for wanting to do that.. but the thing is she like nv think of the consequences. M took from me before but i was pissed awhile then ok le but S surely angry v long de can! and S is stressed enuff. =( how i wish i got the money to return it for M. but the last time wrong when i gave B and M all the money i am officially bankrupt. haix. wat to do?
maybe i shld rob a bank..
haha..
WTH..
i wil stick to studying for exams..
seems more feasible. haix.
ok i wilthink of waste to solve it since i love them all and i dun wanna see them get angry and sad!=l

OH! i played volleyball with 10 today. THeir class so united can! the guys and girls mingled so well.. haix.. think about my class also sian.. everyone is studying.. dun misread me.. i am not discouraging them to study.. studying a good and crucial now.. BUT.. sometimes outing no one goes de leh! then the reason is they wanna study. abit depressing. =( i hope we can have more time to interact and know each other better.. but dun seem to have the time le. haix.
anw..just ended tuition.. so tiring.. everyone seem so prepared for exam and I AM NOT.blah.. heck..i will just do my best.

LI jia wei lost! 2 blows for her today.. both from the Chinese. BUT ITS OK JW! You played with faith and lost with pride. Playing with better players sure makes u more experienced and play better the next time round. =D

ciao

haha! first period was chemistry! mdm lee WERI cute..=D
after that had pe lesson.. ran 2 runs then played floorball. haix.. i feel so guilty to huiwen..cos i promise her i wont run fast le..but just cannot control larh! like.. i dun like the feeling of running behind ppl.. like i wanna be faster.. haix.. guilty..at least i compensated by runing another round behind her after PE.haha.wat a lan compensation..
anw..FLOORBALL quite fuN! but i was kinda retarded larh..i cant handle sticks well man.. then so many times i hit to the opponent! like wat the hell!! hahaha.. but i scored one oK!=D Voltaire was at some higher ground watching..hoho.. HE WAS WATCHING HIS CLASSMATE PLAY LARH! WHAT ARE YOU GUYS THINKING OF MAN! xp they all damn high..dunnoe for wat. I feels kinda weird actually. anw.. hope his leg faster recover... (:
yar then watched awhile of table tennis Feng and nederlands (i dunoe why they spell it this way).. FENG IS MY IDOL CAN! she played damn well.. wah but i very irritated by this 08 guy he support the opponent..like wat the hell! ppl from ur country u dun support u go support another one that i dun even know what is the actual name of the countrY! BETRAYER! then some more infront of so many Singapore fan shout and clap leh..wat the hell. >_<
ok after that was nothing much alr... gave P his Tcher's day gift..hope he like it!=D
gave him classfoto and everyone's note and some sweet.. he say he nv see the class foto before =.=
ya so here i m watching this taiwan show.."fated to love you" like nice can!
but the Xinyi jus got miscarriaged.. so sad.. POOR JINIANPING (the baby in the womb's name).Now the Dylan just scolded her for not standing up to wat she deserved and always getting looked down as "post-it" girl by the ppl around her..collegues all looking down at her. cant help wondering if there are such pple around us today.. probably yes.. wonder if what they been through have been similar to hers. There is this issue of a person being unneccessary and self-worth. SO wat is self-worth? is it qualitative or quantitative term? can we measure it? Dylan said something that is quite true. everyone has only got 1 brain... it is up to us to use and by our ability and our need to use it.. it will determine ourself worth.. BUT... is it always thru for all circumstances? what if the person is born into a world that doesnt allow her to even choose to use her brain? if such situation is placed on another.. would things turn out differently?at many times, we always complain that we are not given a chance.. but when we ARE REALLY given the chance.. can we grasp it? DO we even know that this is a chance? I really don't know... Does hard work really pay off? If so, why are their still hardworking people still remaining at where they are.. not improving?

=(

ciao~

yay! Feel all happy and excited for my BEST fren's lunar birthday! haha but that phrase, u shld have guessed that it is not the exact day.. we brought the date forward! haha. rationalE: cos the present i bought for her is distraction based...buy it early so that she wont get distracted when alevel comes! (although it is INDEED coming)
anw.. ya today was a TOTALLY boring day except maybe for GEOG? haha. MS huang quite entertaining..and i am amazed can! she can speed thru urban so fast. lol
Ya went to watch Journey to the centre of the Earth today. HOHO! quite nice.. mmm the effects and visual impacts are unexpecting then i think its quite cool! i give 4 star out of 5! =D but correctly pointed by MCO, some science facts in the story like the chronology in which dinosaurs should have appeared is wrong! and the nature of volcano in Iceland..mmm.. is like tat one meh? but its nice larh! if there really lies a centre of the earth.. and i tell that it is a haven.. but in order to get it u have to risk you life.. will u go for it or to stay where u are? i guess as of now.. i will choose to stay put. my definition of haven may be different from yours, my apologises, i feel that a haven is some where u live comfortably with your loved ones and you are doing things that you have passion in. If i go to the centre of the earth, firstly: i may lose my life, secondly: without my frens and family (not all possibly so heng can make it there) i don't think its quite of haven anymore, thirdly: what am i going to do whole day?! like HARLO!! there only got plants and animals.. grow crops? ya my point is, many people often try to find the most perfect thing in life, but often they failed to understand what is actually most impt. In the world where paper chase is a social norm, are we losing our human characteristic ie love etc. the very factor that distinguish us, homosapiens, from the animals?
okok digress.. the show is nice.=D
anw ya so after the show we walked about AMK then i bought muffins! actually i dun feel like eating them.. but i saw them and reminds me of my neighbour! she always share good food with us and altho my mom often buy food for them (the sharing interaction), i still wanna buy them nice things!she is nice.haha. In the past, I always thought that receiving gift, i will be the riches and happiest and fulfilled person! But as I grow and mature, seeing many things come and go, materials seem less trivial especially in the face of phenomena crisis around the world me realise how minute i am to the world.. material goods are not going to get me the whatever spiritual achievement and stuff. and YA! i was super happy i bought the muffin today. just like just now when i pass Khong the present and the newspaper articles of Li,Feng,Wang, Phelps and Tao Li. Maybe seeing people being happy is what gives me the fufilment gut feeling bah. Can you image the viral dissesmination of happiness? If i help 1 or make 1 person happy today. he or she inturns do the same for another.. like VIRUS! i hope the world, seemingly to be horrifying and ugly, will become better. There is saying that babies who just arrived are the purest at heart, it is the environment that corrupt them .Then I have a small wish, whatever small acts we do each day will collectively changed the "corrupting" atmosphere.. our newborns will be really INNOCENT.
crap.lol.=D

CIAO~

ok today at least dun have GP as my first lesson.
today is totally boring! Chem was ok..mdm lee was darn cute!=D
then watched this grp of j2s playing volleyball as their PE lesson. SO envious of their pe lesson with mr chua!his lesson v fun de.lol.
math test. WOAH! FUN! haha. first time i finish a test 15 mins before it end stil got time to check. BERT!! stil got one careless! i must prac more le!so tat no more careless mistakes!=D
then chem..charming went thru the mcq..quite good.=D at least i learnt something new..=D
then CIVICS...
resume.. interview..
oh at the end of civics, one guy fell down! Flat on his face! OUCH! i think his chin bled. I know how that felt like! my chin kenna tat and stitch bfore! =( i hope he is ok! hope no deep scar and recover asap!
ok then went meet sinhoe pass him the prelim book and here i m using the com!
watching - fated to love you. its quite nice. altho abit typical of taiwan show but i CHEN QIAO EN! =P

CIAO~

FInals ended with team singapore losing 0-3 to host China.
Before the game i told myself that Singapore has wat it takes to reach the Finals.. she has wat it takes to win China. Even just be the game ended, I stil believe a miracle will happen. It may not be the very super miracle occurence tat we all hope to see.. but Singapore...being such a small red dot being able to make it to the finals itself is really a miracle being fought hard for by the many people in Team singapore. Some of us are cynical, saying that Li, Feng and Wang are from China too, so its like China VS China in some sense during the Finals. But look at it this way, where we are born does not determine and does not have a direct relation to where our passion and love reside. Li came to Singapore from young, it may be opportunity she sees when she decided to come to Singapore but i choose to believe that it is her love for our country that made her stay on. With her skill and potential, i believe she has wat it takes to go to another country that can even offer her better. WHy stay on? maybe its being used to Singapore, maybe... maybe... but the fact remains that she stay on to fight for and with singapore till the end.:)
Feng is a star arising... i am sure her coolness can get her v far in the next olympics! =D

Just some thoughts..
CIAO~

Singapore is into the FINALS!
I applaud the performance of the table tennis players in their fight against the Koreans in the semi-finals on friday. Their tenacity, their confidence and their will power really made their game works! Altho there were set back here and there they held on and WIN!
Later the finals will be on! 7.30pm in channel u and 5. No matter how slim our chances may have been estimated to be, I still believe in that 0.005% chance that we will win!JIAYOU!
On friday, i caught sight of another AJ. We were all glued to the TV around our school and especially amongst the JC2s, we took turn to go outside the Audi during the test to look at the score during the test. I am not saying that it is good to be distracted during the test, i am commenting on the teamwork! FIRST TIME! CROSS CLASSES! and its the first time i hear AJ scream in unison for a common goal... ie to win a medal in the Olympics after a 48 years wait. PS: even during sports day i don't see such enthusiastic uproar.ROCK On AJ!

ciao~

The following is the list of things i need to remind myself to blog about:
1) Money no enough movie
2)What happened during PE lesson today
3)What happened during geog lect..the iron lady and bull devil king story
4)What happened during tuition


wanted to rant about them today... but there are tests tml! Math stats and bio class test..sian bio tut is a waste of time. how i wish i can pon it. oh almost forget tml got Geog time praC AGAIN~
tired.

CIAO~

ESTHER TAN IS SICK OF SLACKING INFRONT OF COMPUTER!
today shall be the last time i am using com to watch videos online and play random games!
less than 3 mths from ALEVELS i need to buck up!!
RULES:
-i shall use internet onli once everyweek
-each time less than 2 hrs
-most of time use the school one so tat i wont play games
-NO MORE VIDEOS!
-finish all hw bfore using computer!!

URGH!
JIAYOU!
ciao~

COOL!! 43RD birthday!

5 reasons i love SIngapore!:
1)its safe
2)my friends are here
3)my family is here!
4)pple here are quite nice (exclude tingle of kiasu-ness and kiasi-ness and Kayponess)
5)SINGAPORE came a long way to achieve what she has today! *applaud*=)

crap
ciao~

hiz...Recently sure lots of things happen man..
first is the GP study grp incident. shant elaborate much incase words get out and get wagged about..basically its about the dispute over difference in ideas...now thinking whether shld stop the discussion grp thingy..
then is J and Y de incident..it started of as a small thing when J made a comment on something she wanna do then cun decide then asks the ppl around her for opinion. the apparently Y (according to J) made a comment on J.. ya then wrote on her blog..then J saw..VOLA! fiery smses flying about...technology saves the innocent from violence due to war. DIscuss.. haha..how i wish i can write this eg... SURE A.. BERT...too bad i cant. anw..i hope the strained relationship can mend one day.
NEXT N and C. haix.. i dunnoe..maybe its my fault i ask N to go the back w me cos we suppose to give HW present..then N also wanna see her rxn then she moved to the back with me.. THEN C angry tat she left her alone.. AND ITS VERY ANGRY.. i dunoe why i feel angry for N.. i dun feel tat she did anything wrong..all of us perplexed by why C is angry.. even Z dun dare to talk to her abt it..later they quarrel again. i guess C is just stress.. then N was the triggering factor. haix. Does familiarity always breed contempt? Discuss.
SIAN...why am i always thinking of GP?
G made a comment on my paper 2 time prac tat i can aim for an A for GP. Like is it really possible? i failed leh..to jump to an A. haix.. nonetheless still thankful she had such faith in me..very nan de.. i will work hard! 3 moremths..!
played badminton at MPH today after school. feel so relaxed and healthy now.. i guess when work gets piled up, exercise can really help. =D kinda tired tho..my arms!! Voltaire and company walked pass MPH just now..WootS! Z they all nv tell me! later i do weird actions again how?! LARKY at tat time i din..haha.
VOLTAIRE COOL!-->confirmed from ytd geog lect.hahhaa.
tml is national celebratioN!! i love SINGAPORE! i m serious.. haha.. only place i got all my frens and family around. if i do get to realise my dream tat i wrote in my previous few post of going overseas to open orphanages.. Singapore will still be my home.. =D
happy 43rd birthday SINGAPORE! (ps incase i not coming online so soon!0:)