I was randomly looking through the msn contact list when i saw J.
I suddenly realise his not going to be online anymore...i suddenly miss him alot..miss crapping with him..
We humans are always like that we only treasure stuff that we have lost.
Just like my nick the other day...you will always be in our hearts...

I can't help but have such thoughts these days:

No matter how hard you try to convince yourself that light doesn't travel in a straight line, it still does...Just like no matter how hard you try to convince yourself that somethings would not happen, it will still happen. Should we still challenge what we were foretold?
P.S. I am kinda into physics these days.

I am experiencing some de ja vu of what happened when i took my PSLE results..i made a right choice then (i think) will i make a right choice now?

Anw, I told her a lie. Actually feeling quite guilty so i decided to write here least i am overcome by guilt. She doesnt know about this blog... I know what they were talking on the phone. I am not suppose to know..but somehow i knew. She doesnt want you to know as she is worried that you would not be able to take it or that it would have hurt ur pride. Let me be the safekeeper of this secret, I don't want you to be affect. If you know it in the future...i am sorry i lied.

CIAO~

GREAT! i pass my final theory for driving ytd! and i gotten back my alevel results.
hee i can stop worrying i cant get into uni!=D
i got a D for general paper..tats quite sucky.but the rest stil ok.. AAAAB.
hope i get into whatever course i wanna.(:
i am worried for shina, qx and lyn. they din do very well..saw qx cried for the first time today i am lost of what to do. I hope they are taking in well by now.cheer up girls!
i have got psychometric test at polic cantonment complex tml.so worried on what i maybe expecting!
i wil have to learn to chill.haha.
ciao~

i miss school days..
miss the lessons,miss the food,miss the place and especially i miss the pple and frens i USED TO have.
how sad it is when before parting goodbyes we promised to keep in touch,
whats left now are byes that we do not think about.
maybe we were closed in the past cause of pure obligations as we see each other daily,
but i truely hope that MAYBE..we truly wants to be...FRENS.
MAYBE i am being sensitive as i also tot myself as...but we are really drifting apart.
my eagerness to stay intouch will die down one day if repeatedly drenched by cold rejects.
MAYBE she is busy..my mom always tells me. YEA maybe...but why am i not the reason you are busy that day?
a fren smsed one day...i was really happy. but she onli wants to remind me to return her $3.50 for chicken rice she helped me buy the other day.i am soaked in the dampness of reject...well...maybe i shld have just returned her the money EARLIER so that what she rembs of me is not $3.50..BUT ME.ME. ESTHER TAN HUIYI.ME!
i think i am losing faith...
i will one day think that friends forever is BULLSHIT.
that will be the day i will stop making friends.
let things just stop at acquaintance-level.
so that the level of damage will be at the minimal...
Wish you luck in whatever you are doing... pls call me one day...date me for a drink...before i really lose what little confidence i have of friendship.