ALL U GUYS OUT THERE WHO ARE OUT TO SEE ESTHER TAN FAIL AND COLLAPSE IN TEARS LIKE A WEAKLING...I AM SO SORRY TO INFORM YOU THAT YOU WONT SEE THAT HAPPEN...=)
-T i am not saying u! haha. dun be sensitive.
i still got less than a month after working hard for 2 years on the bloody Alevels and i am not going to quit. I dont believe i will continue to fail GP... i am very weak at it...VERY.. but doesnt mean i am doomed. ANguS you just wait and see.. Even if i still dont do well for Alevels...at least I am clear of my conscience that i have tried my best that others are very much better than me.
For all those frens and family members that have been giving me support whenever i fail and looked super EMO, i really appreciate it and thnks! I hope you guys do very well for 'A' levels too.
I guess this will be like the last blog entry til the end of exams unless got something very exciting and interesting that i wanna to share here.
Sinhoe if you see this blog entry..STOP SLACKING AND WORK HARD! NO TIME LE! jia you k! =D
VOLTAIRE JIA YOU TOO!(: altho VOLTAIRE WONT SEE THIS! haha.

ciao~

my day ytd was blue and gloomy.. remorse, regret and ALOT of mixed feelings made my day so terrible and suffocating. Walked home ytd from the mrt and mayb i did cry... cos ppl were staring at me. but i really dunnoe...i know i felt numb..
everyone is telling me their result... frens..ok.i really feel happy for them that they are getting good grades and especially those that work really hard.. i feel happy for them cos their efforts paid off.BUT SOME! i DIN ASK U TELL ME FOR WAT! WHAT IS UR INTENTION? YES U DID BETTER THAN ME...AND...THEN?
chill... ok ya so plus alot of stuff.. esther is officially in need of a counsellor..ytd felt terrible cos i got so many feelings trapped inside and i have no channels to express it. Sis is busy..mom dun understand (but she gave me a hug which felt better), N seems busy and Dad wont understand. Is blog the only chanel that i can relish my angony? Is blog the only ranting venue?
nvm..is over now.. life still moves on.
i start studying today.. i read bio and newspaper just now at the reading room...wasnt very constructive but at least i start.. the most difficult and important step is always the first ya? =D
anw.. i increased my readership! haha. TWSH is officially accepted to be the reader of this blog.. hahaha.. congrats.=)

ciao~

ok i am upset that i fail GP. mid year was an E.. now fail.. i really dunnoe what to do in order to do well in that subject especially with alevels hot on my heels.. i really DUN wanna retake Alevels eh...but it seem so difficult to grasp.. i read newspaper.. i pay attention in class..why do i still fail...ppl who dun do all these still able to pass..WTH. unfair world can.
i hate angus cos she made me hate GP.
=(

i need some anti-depressant.

ciaO~

dun be mistaken...this is not an attempt to write another GP or geog essay..had enough of them!haha.
i going crap some stuff about the result furore over tainted chinese milk and other products. I cant help but wonder if these incidents were to happen 10years ago.. where china is not yet the main mfging country or not yet so connected with the rest of the world... would these incidents affect so many pple so far away? haix.. i am so upset that my FAVORITE MILK--> Dutch lady, may have problem! I just bought it can! then now need to throw it away... its like a childhood drink! =X I believe all these problems are all Man'S fault... it is all greed and the lack of concern for the society that had resulted in all bizaarre global phenomenon..cant help it but wonder what these ppl will actually gain by causing the death of 4 babies and causing so many pple getting sick! and of cos...caused me of my fav milk prdt. i was about to go and find some news article to put up here but ya no time!going out soon...
anw...shld i PS tml? sian leh tml like nothing much altho i feel like attending chem lect.

CIAO~

Elllo!

this week is kinda lucky... all my papers passed! so far tho the rest i am not sure.. my most worried paper.. GP is nt back yet! haix worried. kinda surprise i managed to pass all so far! phew~ but the result not tat good tho. abit disappointed with geog.. i think i deserve it larh..haix who ask me nv study.. or maybe i did.. a lil.. then who asked me not to start studyingEARLY! today went to voltaire de geog class.. i think their tutorial class very serious like very scary! and v is alone! like no one talk to v=C i stil prefer my geog tutorial class...like more noisy.. fun!
sian..my parents like nag at me 1000000 times to go prepare for tuition le..AH! i just wake up then very high inertia ma! keep nagging. anw..i official a nocturnal animal! my sleeping time is 1 to 5 pm. haha!!
oh yaya! i ordered a pair of running gear.. the person reco based on my foot structure.. i feels quite comfy tho a lil ex..but nvm i shall save up on my own! =D$110. i ordered le then realise i no money.haha.. bro in some kind of financial prob lately and ya i had to help him...if he cant settle this he can nv be free of debt.. let alone go and study and craft out a different future. even if it means myself being more tired and less money to spend.. i will DO ALL I CAN TO HELP U BRO! who ask me to have only one bro.hahaha. okok nag again!cya.

CIAO~

torturous prelims is finally over ytd! but wat is coming is MUCH BIGGER THAN PRELIMS...
haha
ytd me, nic, xp, viv, zj, cc, joy and ber went to Sentosa siloso beach! we wanted to go palawan de then we dunoe how to go siloso nearer! lol. ya then we played beach volley until i now looked like cooked crab!hoho! but sunburn really painful! =X joy was sleeping thru out the beach trip can! haha pig. cc saw a guy tat look like BEBG..haha then keep staring..quite good looking larh..but go tattoo!
after tat we met t and yh for dinner...went susho tei! =D i add crab friedrice..like eating my fren like tat...cos look the same ah the color.. yep and went toysrus! oh man so long nv go there le.. but i realise i dun really like vivo..SO BIG! then like will easily lost..i dun like eh..prefer quiet and cosy feeling shopping center.. altho vivo quite good got alot of stuff, but like dun have an quan gan. =X
today the physics ppl still got exam..HAHA! but then they willhave the last laugh cos alevels their exams will end first! not faiR!! =X i going malaysia later with parents... i dunoe if school will let not but i guess they wont know? haha going shopping! very very very long time nv go there with them le.. since...sec3? used to go there like once a week? then sec4 got olvel then from then on jiu busy le! ok! my dad calling me to go bathe and going off! hoho! now kinda excited...

p.s. hope ber and cc faster send me the beach fotos then can upload and go print! =D

ciao~

WoohhooOO! liverpool won man u 2-1 !
heres a link to bbc's report :
http://news.bbc.co.uk/sport2/hi/football/eng_prem/7601885.stm

=D

the monkey is still outside my house. Ytd chaotic! pple standing outside and policemen too. the monkey stole orange from some other ppl's home and ate on my roof! then all the orange skin there also!haha. quite cute tho it scared me ytd. eh tml going to call ppl to catch it away... BYEBYE MONKEY~

tml going sentosa with my gang of frens!=D so cool v long nv go there le! after that going vivo city! +D

ciao~

ok..this week was a total flop.. a total disappointment.. u can just name any negative words to describe the week i think that it will also be suitable.. The papers... at least to me... are all super hard.. but guess part of the reason is i wasnt prepared for the papers.. too slack. haix. ytd bio was another paper of disappointment, (someone cried i guess out of her not being able to do the paper.. i wish i cried.. but i know i deserve it so i know i shldnt...) not mentioning math tat was nv easy bfore. =( disappointment shld stop today.. i shall make a mad dash for Alevels. i dun wan to be the loser, i dun want to be the one crying my lungs out next year march when get back result. JIA YOU HUIYI!
ANW... just now a monkey came and visited me at my window..SHOCKING! my mom saw a monkey afew days ago and she shooed it away then i think it din went away larh probably just wander about the neighbourhood. Then just now when i was using the com my neighbour called and inform us the monkey is at her roof! OMG. then me and mom immediately closed all windows and doors and wateveR! LUCKY i did it before the monkey came. cannot imagine if it enters the house. I know it just wanna some food... but the who knows whether it will wreak havoc.. mom say there is more than one monkey! got some neighbour saw some crossing the expressway towards our estate afew days back. I wonder where are these monkeys from. The monkey at the window (it just left a few mins ago) dun look like the ones i saw at upper pierce the other day.. Different breed... then i was wondering if they escaped from the zoo... which is not say very far from here.. BUT on foot its quite far leh! then again zoo so nice place why would a monkey wannna leave? anw.. my called the dunoe wat agency and they are ON LEAVE on SAT AND SUN! as if animals dun run about on weekends... as if the animals on weekends too wont wreak havoc..! URGH. shldnt all have break on weekends ma... routine? aiyah its not up to me to say also. I hope the monkey gets caught soon.. abit evil larh..but then its kinda scary to have something at the window staring at u! it looked fierce. =X

CIAO~

oh man.. PRELIMS..
OH MAN X 100.. i am not prepared for it!
damn.. blame myself for my laziness... blame myself for my playfulness.. the prelims damn hard! dunnoe if it is hard for me only.. BUT... even if it means others find it hard to doesnt mean tat i shld not be able to do it! haix..
the thing is... i am stil watching shows now..oH MAN!
tml is geog paper. i dun wanna disappoint miss huang.. but then i seem to have lost watever motivation it takes to open up my books to start studying. i no cannot like tat.. but i just cannot change.. I DUNOE WHY.. lol.. mayb i procrastinate too much.. i WILL CHANGE...soon..gradual~
haix.

ciao~

OMG tml is prelim. so dead. seriously.. i havent been studying much.. and i m still watching the academy.. the hk show now..haix! wat is wrong with me man! >_<
ok very long nv rant le!
anw..I AM GOING KOREA! WOOHOO!! 30thdec.. haha.. there will be super cold.. between -2 to 0deg!! going with aga de family, xp, viv, wh,fel and MOM! too bad khong cant go..if not we keep laughing at korea sure not cold le.cos laughing is an exothermic process..lol. CHEM P3 tml u see..
haha.. going jeju and some other cities + seoul! LOOK FORWARD! actually..i m look forward more for alevel to finish.. so sian of seeing everyone studying and nagging me to study.. I am sian of all the gou xin dou jiao.. like everyone telling everyone they not studying but in actual fact they are.. URGH. dun like. so hopefully alevels finish then we are still good frens! =D
things to do after alevels:
1) buy dress for sis wedding
2) buy go korea de winter wear
3) find a job
4) learn new lang!
5) watch shows like nv before! hahha.. (altho i am alr doing so.)
khong told me about B calling her ytd and she super angry. i hear le kinda of sian also...like why mus she do tat! makes everythin seem so fake. i tot studying is suppose to be fun thing..(i like studying - exams)
oh.. ytd the tutor from caravan bb came and sub mrs yak for a session. me and khong DAMN SHOCK! i was like... eh..this person very familiar..why he like teach me bfore.. then i oH!him..haha. then khong aiyo-ed him then think he heard.haha.his teaching not bad larh...but me and khong abit rude..cos we keep laughing..NOT AT HIM! but among ourselves cos we keep doing silly stuffs. he was suppose to tell me why f'(x) curve cannot have a point of inflexion de! then i think he forgot he wanna explain to me..then he walk out le! i still tot he wil come back then we sat there awhile then left! nvm..maybe ask cheeky to ask him.
tml is bio p3 and chem p3! SHIT.
ok i go watch show le!

CIAO~