Today i went to play pool with Cousin Oxy(ah wei) and his girlfriend, Jez. haha..FuN! first time go out with them end up quite nice.=D haix. i tot i will have my korean lesson today! but end up postpone also din tell me! waste my time! we could have played longer.
ok i am so stuck with this hongkong show Forensic Heroes! haha. Tempting me to continue chemistry in uni..like so amazing the way chemistry and science can be used to find the truth of crimes!
did i mentioned? i signed up for VSC..quite apprehensive about what will be the outcome of my application! i wonder whether will i get in..haha.
i am learning driving soon! Mr teo or Mr Tan? which driving instructor should i engaged to teach me driving? Ms Jez is pondering about this qn also.haha.

i am so tired. oh oh... i love the song GIVE MY LOVE...! so stuck into the back of my head. its played in the korean show Last dance. =D
shall end my rant here.

ciao~

today is the fourth day of new year..
seriously no new year mood at all for this year.
disappointing.
bored.
later maybe meeting cousin and jez for pool! bukit timah! but maybe not going also cos jez think dun wanna go bt..
anw..i more and more like the boys before flowers show!haha.korean version for f4! hee.=D
waiting for them to load episode 9. sian.

ciao~

Today i met nicole for arcade..lunch..shopping and slacking. I bought a white dress! =D abit thin tho..but ok i can wear a shirt inside. Finally went out after like dunoe how many days slacking at home doing nothing except for surfing the net. Actually was feeling pretty good and stuff then reality seem to struck me. Ok..i am going home. What am i going to do next? yes..study for my FTT.. then? suddenly feel that my life is getting on monotonously...no meaning. then i rembed the random internet search that i made on the SPF webbie. I feel like taking up Volunteer Special Constabulary.. Being a police officer is like one of the career path i may take up i really want to try what it is like..to do something meaningful. Anw it won't take up alot of time cause the min. is 16 hours of duty every month. I don't mind the low pay..(there is reason why it is volunteered) if i am doing something i like i feel CORRECT..but i really no confident. My shoulder injury..will i be able to survive the 9months of basic training?will i excerbate the problem on my shoulder? will they even want me if they know that i may not be 100% fit? other than that...i have no confidence of convincing my dad that i want to try enrolling that.. He has no objection of me wanting to become an officer in the future..but now? i really dunno. terribly dunno.confused.angry at myself for me doubtful of myself..angry at myself for the lack of confidence to try. I really don't know what become of me. Ever since the stupid shoulder of mine became injured...it has really robbed off alot of opportunity from me..alot of games.. alot of experience..ALOT OF CONFIDENCE on court and off court. Because i FEAR. not of pain...but fear of worrying my parents again.


Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you NOT to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won't feel unsure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. As we let our own Light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
-Marianne Williamson

You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do.
-Eleanor Roosevelt

Can i really do what they say?

I have successfully changed blogskin..
*claps*
SO PROUD OF MYSELF...
Although still got error here and there...I just ask my advisors to help me.=D
Today is Taksheng's birthday..HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

i am so exhausted from work man...
from morning till night i am faced with piles and piles of orders!lucky i nv work long term..so tiring..but i will work! i wanna save money buy pillow for parents..haha..parents old alr..need better neck rest for better night sleep and rest!
anw..i found back my confidence that my dream will come true one day... first step...SAVE and EARN ALOT OF MONEY!hohoho..anyone interested in "investing" into my dream can email me!i promise its worth it.=P
i miss having not to do and think of anything in korea!=X back here gotta think of work..kk..going off..

ciao~

see this weird feeling rising in me...
no longer as sure there direction that i am heading..WHY! i m also not sure...but i will find a way out of this..
today i am working!finally after rotting at home for so long..but i wil be working only for 2 days..i havent finish studyin for my driving test on the 20th..WISH ME LUCK!
my korean lesson starts on 30th jan! so looking forward to it..hope its not to hard!...

gotta go rushing for work.

CIAO~

i just went lot1 to print photos and take kimchi and squid from XP.. i printed another 75 photos and in total i printed 175 photos alr! XP still laugh at me say i print alot end up she one day alone print more than 100 plus! she is mad de! haha.
ok i now watching the korean show new heart by 池成，金敏侦， 赵在贤 和 李智something.. that show is super nice.. but then... i am angry super duper angry when i am watching the show! like...how can the doctors meet difficult diseases and all attempting to cease treatment for fear of failure cos it will tarnish the reputation of the hospital? How can the doctors put their fear above the fear of the patients himself..?! like...can you imagine the fear, anxiety and all the mixed feelings already felt by the patients...how can the doctors be so irresponsible to excerbate this fear that they are feeling... what is worst than the fear of being given up by doctors?! oh man..angry. ok but one thing that the show has reiterated in me is that you do not have to be great to help others. even though you may not be a doctor or someone great to be able to actively involved in the helping process...but you never belittle what little power that one hold to make another feel better. =D I already set my goal..my lifetime goal...JIA YOU!

i am going to continue watching the angry show!

CIAO¬

some ski photos! haha..