its been so long sinced i blogged
i feel that i have aged so much since entering uni.
i promise i will make my uni-life vibrant next year and stil get good grade.
its just a matter of what your brain thinks.
nono
its just a matter of what you wan your brain to think

ytd was spdition
i met this boy who aspire to be in aero also.
he is special. but he doesnt allow himself to think this way.
he still wanna work his way there.
ALL THE WAY!
you be at where you wanna be if you try and believe
you may fail.
but you can get up and try
and fail and try
one day you will succeed

am i encouraging him or myself?
whatever la
i shall be focus from today onwards
i realised that i almost put my dream at the back of mind
the source of motivation that make me work hard
make me wanna achieve something so realise it

GOOD LUCK TO YOU HUIYI

its been so long since i blogged.
opps =X been busy at uni.. =(
i wonder why teachers in the passed always says uni is much slacker than jc.. mayb they are trying to encourage us to jump into hell.wahaha.
prob its slacker here cos no one cares if we attend lesson..but everyone will jus attend no matter wat.cos will die if nv attend cos afterwards will not understand a shit.
lol. my best rewarding discovery in uni:
in uni, getting a 80 or even 90 for a test is considered cui if everyone else are getting 100.
lol.
tat makes 90 a b.
how nice.
lol. back to studying. (:

i feel emo..
emo i feel you..
rawr...i dunoe what i talking.
anw,i got into maxar main comm as public relation executive. hooray.
i am happy about it.
do i sound like?
i dunnoe.
gah..
looks like my total utility is really 0111111 of signed bits.
and even the lecturer also agrees tat we shld just leave everything to market forces.

ciao~

okay..i am back home!
=)
i have decided that i think i do want to stay at hall8 next year so i have to start working hard in hall!due to my VERY lack of pts, distance pts onli 3? lol..its v hard for me to earn pts so i go by participating in alot of comms to get in to rec list!
I want to join the following:
Maxar main comm
Welfare sub-comm
Sports sub-comm
Take part in IBG and IHG
and FOC GL or senior attach.. LOL.
Porky has been trying to tell me the pros of jus being a senior attach over GL..haha.his argument is that SA if u are tired u can dont run..GL u tired u stil have gotta run. LOL..
Ok..that one can wait til a later date.. first things first.. this monday got Maxar interview! at common hall there i think. i wil go for it.=)
then got IBG..wk asks me to play for 42 in basketball..but super long nv play alr! n super long nv exercise..WILL die!*touch wood*
but most prob i will join IHG..like got training before playing at least not so bad..i hope my shoulder is good and doesnt give me problems! =X
this week has been shag..may be not yet used to the tutorials and stuff.. but i stil LOVE my hall life!
<3 apple!
CIAO~

woah..
had a long day. after school had korean lesson at JE. i kept dozing off. feel bad.=x
then came back and chatted with them! wahaha..it was chaotic yet fun..dun wan go in to the details but just FUN! haha.. the ALOT OF COT form.. alot of gossip. i realli realli love my clan.. the people are all fun.=)
was talking to yj about HIV vaccines...i realli realli hope he can produce the vaccine one day! so many poor kids out there are like suffering and dying becos of the dirty reality about this world.. I hope i can do my part to protect them one day.
wanted to blog long stories about my day. but super tired alr..now like 2.47? shag..
NIGHT! and SD! =)

ciao~

okay where did i stop?
oh well,whatever.
so fri night i went to find them at OOSH? okay i was super early cos i rushed out thought i will be late!okay then i went to buy pressie for my SP and took a cab to botanical garden.Its been so long since i went to BG? like long till i dun remb my presence there.
okays so i walked. The more i walked...the more emo i got..lol. maybe it was due to the lack of noisy Kaizo frens tat i have. JUST EMO-DED then.Okay just walked and then saw this swan lake..and swans(like DUH). Wanted to take a freaking foto with them and they scare me! GRRR...
Walk and walk...walking makes me think about alot of things.From the most recent, camp.I was amazed how friendships can be made so easily and yet when things go wrong the friendship just ends like tat. WOAH..
ok then i started thinking about my past few years..like JC,secondary school.wat i did.wat i did correctly..and i din realise i was walking towards Oosh. then i tot of JTJJ. Idk why whenever i am emo i will remb all things and memories that we shared in secondary school..i think its a stupid move cos tat just makes me more emo knowing that i wont see him ever again. Uni life is gg to begin like another phase of my life? but i just cant help thinking about the past phases. I will wonder whether i will find a fren like JTJJ ever in the future. okay great i am gg to arrive teary at Oosh was my tot when i was about to reach dempsey. then i got lost at some place that has durian selling sessions.
i called qiu ping and the phone was passed on to alot of pple and then finally settled on derrick who brought me there. phew.
got there then i think the sianness set in..but i think something amused me! haha! my SP is so secretive that i until know also dunnoe who he is! haha..he din come and find me.. my clan pple super angry about it but then i think stil okay leh.. at least i am spared the akwardness.hahaha.
Kaizo won best games and best clan! woots! 3 years in a row! can hang banner alr!muahahha.
high.
went back chalet at around 2 then reach at around 3 then bathed! woah some pple realli drunk untill cannot walk! so scary~then was supper then HTHT!=)my fave! but then our clan HTHT is like most pple still sleeping type? not fun one.then went HTHT with the seniors..more gossips about jiabas..i din sleep whole daY!was talking to one of the few survivors like jb, par,yj till bus came.. i am practically a walking zombie when i went to collect my keys..=(
okay enuff recollections..today national day! HAPY BIRTHDAY SINGPORE!=)
i wil stil love you even when u are 100! teehee.
okays.i tml stil got teach tuition..sleeping soon!
ciao~

i just came back for awhile then going out to msia soon then going to meet the guys at dempsey! these guys rock my life for the past few days...completed tasks with me that i know i will never be able to complete without them!
To be truthful, I din go to the camp with a 100% heart cos i was sceptical. I wanted to just like leave on thurs morning since i was made to go msia..then i got addicted to Kaizo. Be it the random "this is a snake, this is also a snake...so is this a snake?" and the "falling falling falling...has the leaf fallen ?"games , the nobody nobody dances by the Wonder gays(OPPS) or the talk kok session at macdonalds..i just love to be with them. The amazing race is also super amazing. It was super tiring...super SHAG...made me look super chui~ ...but as we chiong up every uphill hill and completed every stations, i just cant help but feel proud of myself that I finished it and that we finished it together.. We won the Amazing race for 2days! =D HARPPIE~
I wil blog about SP night again when i come back!
p.s. tml take hall key!WOOTS~

CIAO~

I am 19th! today is the last day in my TENS...next years is my TWENTIES~
well..my birthday is a peaceful one..
everyone kept asking me how come my birthday is spent at home using the internet!
there are even pple calling me siaO~
lol.i must clarify one thing! i did went out with my frens to mind's cafe ytd! teehee.
but actually...i kinda find this new peace on birthday fun. no need the haste and fuss over wat birthday present to buy...what cake to choose... just myself being with myself on the day i am born.
i promised myself that i wanna wake up at 8.37am to wish myself!haha.but then i overslept. oh well, i will do it next year.=)
best present i received this year..the cake my mom baked for me. It was nothing fanciful..a carrot made cake to replace the normally extra sweet chocolate cakes. I love it cos its made by mom. the effort to do it is my best birthday pressie! thnks! =) who says pressie has to be expensive to be memorable?Heehee.(:
Going off~
CIAO~

PS I AM 19!

Met dunearn family for dinner ytd at manhanttan fish market at clarke quay ytd..it seems quite sometime since i met them as i din go for the monthly meeting for 2 times i think? Just happi to see all of them doing well..(:
I ate grilled catch of the day..Pacific Dory..HAHA.Sound so pro..but actually it is just grilled fish and some rice. The fish is nice! Fresh!=) *thumbs up*
PS passed me my birthday pressie.haha..i was kinda in a shock cos din expect. then at that moment i was still thinking when is my birthday la!haha. Well, thnks guys.=) It was my xiao di KK de birthday too! he only younger than me by a few days!hahah.
I especially like the card that was with the pressie...All the well wishes that they gave. PS even drew a sotong in the card... Jordan. How i wish that he is there with us too, laughing with us, eating fish with us. Tiny tiny bits of things in my life reminds me of him..His msn (which i cun bear to del)..His christmas pressie for me last year.. Sometimes I will wonder where is he now..what is he doing..is he enjoying himself in wherever he is? I wont dwell in sadness again cos i know he wont us to be, just wants everyone to be happie...
Its just sad how we onli think of each other when the other is no longer present...That reminds me how terrible i was the passed few years always waiting to be contacted. ;(
I will change. Gimme time. lol. Sound like some advertisment.

CIAO~

ETHY passed her driving test and gotten her licence on 3rd july 2009!
it was a super adventurous experience that she doubt she will ever forget !

her why am i using a third party thingy?haha
din blog ytd when i passed cos was super exhausted mentally dun have the strength to blog.haha
my tester look strict..but he was nice enough to give me very clear instructions and advice such as move infront abit so tat i can see the road clearer to make a better turn.
*thumbs up*

phew lucky everything is over now.
no more lesson for every week.
i can drive a car!
aint tat exciting!

hope i can get my car soon.
hope i can choose the car that i wanna.

shall stop here need to sleep early cos tml need to wake up early for breakfast then meet ah eve and the rest for ah eve's wedding foto shoot!feel excited for her.=)

cIaO~

played badminton in the morning with mom.. my knees are failing me seriously..movements are slowing down...shoulder's injury restrict my hand movement.ok..nvm i am not playing competition so its ok la ya? i guess la huh..
watched prison break season 4...i am going to finish it!actually this whole show is about who can cheat who more and only those who choose the correct person to trust wins the game.its like life...nv know which step we take whether is correct or not. even the hot fave like Michael and Sara also has got pple they betray and got betrayed. This set me thinking...if one day, your bro was set up by a huge force...in death penalty, will u risk everything...even if it means losing ur life..ur career, everything u ever worked hard for..will u do it to save him? I think maybe in show Michael can make the decision to save lincoln so easily...i think i will take ages before i can make up a decision?
alright...enough about the show..i will continue after i finished the whole show maybe i got more things to say bah.haha.
ok i am super pissed with my printer!! i wanted to print the documents for my cpf edu scheme then paper jam!! like everytime i wanna print something also will kena jam. i wan to get it settled quickly man...like its bothering me and dad is like keep nagging me!
ok stop blogging here! i meeting ah eve for badminton tml! haha.. first time..

CIAO~

Got back from beijing on 21st june..lazy to blog till now.
the trip made me changed the impression of china...for abit at least. The other time i went china was to Shanghai, Suzhou,Hangzhou, Wuxi and forgot where alr..maybe its because of the olympics,the environment compared to the other time was MUCH cleaner and lesser hazy.I like the temperature at beijing..walking out on the streets is like walking in an aircon room...mayb the sunlight spoil the atmosphere abit.but its super cooling and cos the humidity is low..i dun sweat!haha.But on the down side, my face got peeling symptoms..lol..too dry alr.
Went to climb the great wall of china..the wall is REALLY GREAT! super long,super steep and despite the regular exercise regime i had, it is still very exhausting to climb up..BUT I MADE IT to the top of that section!haha.the view is magnificient! like..WOAH...like i am SO CLOSE TO THE SKY! everything at the bottom are like ants..so small. The tour guide was telling us abit about the history of the WALL...Millions of people died building it..look at the size of it..i have no doubt that it is true.Braving through the different climate..with little rest and maybe little food.. these ppl gotta carry those small little bricks up and down (mind you, there is no machines at that time)What were these ppl thinking when they are building the wall..?What was the emperor thinking?that the scarifice of the millions to make the country a fortress was worth it? I can't comprehend. Mayb that is what people call..FOR THE GREATER GOOD.
The 7days at china was eye-opening..scenary, old buildings that were build by the Qing, Ming..blah blah dynasty..SUPERB! The shopping place at CHina was also eye-opening...one word to describe? FEROCIOUS. I was once grabbed by 2 Chinese women when i entered a shop to enquire about a top..then i said i will come back again..they just grabbed me even harder! insisting that i negotiate the price with them and not just walk off! I was stuck there for...15mins?then another customer came, i used the few seconds of distraction to "escape" the shop. PHEW. Moral of the story? DONT ENTER A SHOP ALONE.. ok and then i went to call my mom and sis..we went to the shop to buy the top TOGETHER! haha.
All in all..The experience in China made me see many perspective of the country and her people. The thought that my ancestors were from China does made me feel proud that I am a Chinese too.SOMEHOW.

GOing to watch my prison break season 4! type more when i dun feel lazy.HAHA.
CIAO~

my blog finally has got a tag! thanks to mr terence lim.=)

yay going beijing tml alr! wee...i love holiday! received my NTU letter ytd and like seem to have alot of things to do... medical check up,tuition grant thingy, cpf thingy...ALOT! lucky i received it before my hols..i will be on hols till 21st then by then one of the deadline..19june is OVER alr.
well i feel kinda apprehensive about going to uni..haha..like i cannot believe I AM GOING TO BE A UNI UNDERGRAD! primary school like just ytd..tho this thing sounds very cliche..but its true.hahah.
going to PC show later with mom and owyang..buy lappy later! woohoo! hope i can get one that is superly duperly good and not ex..got budget de wor.. buy lappy got another worry seh..like got alot of things about lappy that i dunnoe..HOW sia..need to install anti-virus..ms office and ivan tan is in army how to upload for me!
my lappy better last for 4 years or more!

ciao~

My whole day is spent in the cyber world again..well there is nothing much else that i can do at the moment.
Watched yet another 2 great movies.. Coach carter and remember the titans..The fighting spirits that Richmond basketball team and T.C. team has already owned their opponents!
The more shows i watched..more shows pop up in my head, oldies mainly that are really CLASSIC..NICE.. I want to watch Sister Act, The Pursuit of happyness and Like mike..maybe i will be able to think of nice shows along the way again..but the few shows that i have named shld not be missed! HA!
The sniper is on the theatres alr! Waiting for the show to be not "STar-ded" then i can treat my parents go watch the movie again..this time with the complimentary tickets!hoho!
Gotta go! Bro still owe me some shows,he din bring it back for me!Humpf!

CIAO~

Amazing.. i finished watching 2 movies in half a day..
First i watched Pay it forward. I remb i first watched it at sec2..Mrs Lim showed it to us..it still touched me till today when i watched it. Puts great faith on the good of human nature.. how many of us can really do that? I went to the PIF homepage then they have this page that has got all the personal experience of PIF from different people of different walks of life..i cannot imagine PIF really does work in this seemingly mean world..are we really talking about the same world? Like what one entry mention..it got me thinking..what can i do? can i really do something? to change the world?...
then i watched what terence reco-ded..Forrest Gump. Its pretty interesting to watch..like whatever life puts him into..he picked himself up and move on and he became a BILLIONAIRE in the end.haha. Well its fictional..but i believe such things happen sometime.
Here is a list of motivational movies that i reco now:
-Pay it forward
-Forrest Gump
-Remember the Titans
-Coach Carter
Now i remb what my primary school english teacher said before..Whatever you read..there is always something that you can learn from. Damn how come i only understand it now...if not i would have started reading early.haha.
Going BBDC later to book my prac test date..woo..kinda worried what will i face.haha.
BOO~

CIAO~

its been ages since i blogged.
boredom makes me lazy.haha.
i just watch slumdog millionaire de dvd.Jamal is fated to have a hard life before he can succeed.well in the end he did.=) phew...if i hadnt known that he would win the 20million rupees in the show i would have been so worried for him! lol.
these days have been busy trying out things tat i din do before. First time in my life..i BURNT A CD!First time in my life i uploaded songs in my mobile..and first time i put songs into my ipod.haha.
my dad keep nagging me to go and book my practical driving test date..but i am lost of how to do it! any advice anyone?=( during my sister's era is like not so high tech not internet so cannot give me much advice. i hate the technologically savvy BBDC..its so not computer-idiot friendly.=(
ok crap terence just reco another show to me..forrest gump damn old show 1996? when tom hanks is so so young. ok i am off to watch it!

ciao~

I was randomly looking through the msn contact list when i saw J.
I suddenly realise his not going to be online anymore...i suddenly miss him alot..miss crapping with him..
We humans are always like that we only treasure stuff that we have lost.
Just like my nick the other day...you will always be in our hearts...

I can't help but have such thoughts these days:

No matter how hard you try to convince yourself that light doesn't travel in a straight line, it still does...Just like no matter how hard you try to convince yourself that somethings would not happen, it will still happen. Should we still challenge what we were foretold?
P.S. I am kinda into physics these days.

I am experiencing some de ja vu of what happened when i took my PSLE results..i made a right choice then (i think) will i make a right choice now?

Anw, I told her a lie. Actually feeling quite guilty so i decided to write here least i am overcome by guilt. She doesnt know about this blog... I know what they were talking on the phone. I am not suppose to know..but somehow i knew. She doesnt want you to know as she is worried that you would not be able to take it or that it would have hurt ur pride. Let me be the safekeeper of this secret, I don't want you to be affect. If you know it in the future...i am sorry i lied.

CIAO~

GREAT! i pass my final theory for driving ytd! and i gotten back my alevel results.
hee i can stop worrying i cant get into uni!=D
i got a D for general paper..tats quite sucky.but the rest stil ok.. AAAAB.
hope i get into whatever course i wanna.(:
i am worried for shina, qx and lyn. they din do very well..saw qx cried for the first time today i am lost of what to do. I hope they are taking in well by now.cheer up girls!
i have got psychometric test at polic cantonment complex tml.so worried on what i maybe expecting!
i wil have to learn to chill.haha.
ciao~